I know when you're almost asleep That's my favorite, that's when I creep In through the part of your brain you left unlocked I've had a key since the day that your confidence dropped I know the ones who never called back I know the thing you did that you can't take back I know the version of you that you hide in the day I live there I live there I'm not going away You tried the breathing You tried the light You tried the medication Three nights out of five You tried the talking The writing it down But baby I'm a tenant And I like it here I'm not moving out What are you gonna do When I know everything you're running from What are you gonna do When the quiet comes and I'm the only one You can't burn the house down I live in the walls You can't outrun a voice That knows every hall What are you gonna do What are you gonna do I'm already here I was there at the meeting when you smiled through the ache I was there in the mirror at every mistake I was the reason you couldn't receive the compliment clean I was the static between you and everything you could've been I know you thought you'd outgrow me by now I know you made a whole plan for how But plans need a quiet mind to take root And quiet minds don't invite me And yet Here I am In your living room In your good shoes You tried the breathing You tried the light You tried the long walk And the earlier night You tried the grateful The present tense But I've been here longer Than any of your evidence Against me What are you gonna do When I know everything you're running from What are you gonna do When the quiet comes and I'm the only one You can't burn the house down I live in the walls You can't outrun a voice That knows every hall What are you gonna do What are you gonna do I'm already here I'm not trying to destroy you That's not what this is I just need somewhere to live And you're what there is I grew up in the gaps Between what you were told you were worth I'm just doing what I learned I'm just doing what I learned From the very beginning From the very first hurt Still here Still here Still
