Two Rooms Away

[Verse 1] The loneliest I’ve ever felt Is when you’re in the other room Just a few feet — wood and concrete — But it might as well be the moon I think you miss me more Whenever I’m not around And I know you love me But it feels like you just tolerate me now How did we skip past the good stuff? How did we jump from first dates to dead air? When did the spark turn to silence? When did I start feeling scared? [pre-Chorus] One of these days I won’t want to care What you want What you need What you hide and don’t share Your anxiety Won’t be my responsibility And I’ll forget all the ways You were never really there Your finger is resting On all my triggers You wear a red flag That’s never looked bigger So this is the part Where the end starts So I’ll save you the trouble And leave, just me and my broken heart [chorus] It’s time you finally see how empty it feels when you don’t reach for me How hollow my heart feels When silence is all You offer me When I need you the most, You offer me the least Just Two rooms away, but light years apart I’m stuck in midair Drifting alone in the dark [Verse 2] I’ve learned so fast to disassociate Just to reach my safe escape But I’ve searched every inch of body and soul There’s no exit, no clean break I missed my stop somewhere Now I’m stuck in a feedback loop Cognitive dissonance on repeat Irrational thinking for you I ignore my needs Justify what you do And what I give in devotion You return back in fractions, it’s true [Pre-Chorus 2] Maybe this is just distraction Maybe someday I’ll say All the things I swallow down All the words I’m afraid to say Like the ache in my bones Going to bed alone Knowing you’re right here But I’m still on my own [chorus] It’s time you finally see how empty it feels when you don’t reach for me How hollow my heart feels When silence is all You offer me When I need you the most, You offer me the least Just Two rooms away, but light years apart I’m stuck in midair Drifting alone in the dark [Bridge – Minimal / Spoken-Sung] Just promise me — if you mean All of the words you throw my way In rapid fire succession, Then follow through — don’t just say It’s not just about you Don’t get me wrong Between chaos and heartbreak I fall too hard, too long I need you right now And it’s not codependence It’s the way you make me feel The way you finish my sentence I commend you for making the space In your life for me But if it isn’t real Then end it. Set me free. [Final Chorus / Outro] ’Cause what hurts the most Is being this close Two rooms away — another planet I’m stuck in outer space Not in your orbit Watching from outside, stranded And being outside looking in Is the loneliest I’ve ever been