Woke up with my clothes on The television talking low There was a call from my mother I watched it come and go I spent the night remembering Which part I was sorry for I know I said I needed space I didn’t mean forever All year I kept moving Like motion was a plan Like if I never stopped somewhere I wouldn’t know where I am I lied when I said I was ready I lied when I said I was fine I wasn’t trying to leave you I was trying to leave my mind I’m not saying I’m better I just answered today Sometimes coming back Is all that I can say Tell everybody I’m still here Tell the ones I disappeared on Tell my mother I was scared Tell my friends I can finally hear them I spent the whole year Halfway gone Now I’m learning How to stay Tell everybody I’m still here At least I am today At the pharmacy on Grand An old man dropped his change Three strangers bent down together Then went their separate ways I don’t know why it got me Maybe I needed proof That people still reach for each other Without being asked to So I called you from the sidewalk You let it ring a while Then you said, “Are you alright?” I said, “Not yet, but I’m trying” Cars kept moving past me Somebody started to sing For once I didn’t need the moment To mean more than anything I’m not saying I’m better I just stayed on the line You didn’t try to save me You only gave me time Tell everybody I’m still here Tell the ones I disappeared on Tell my mother I was scared Tell my friends I can finally hear them I spent the whole year Halfway gone Now I’m learning How to stay Tell everybody I’m still here At least I am today I won’t say I found the answer I won’t say the worst is done I got out of bed this morning I let myself be someone Who can miss the life behind him And still want the life ahead Who can carry all that happened Without wishing he was dead Tell everybody I’m still here Tell the block And tell the neighbors Tell the people I let down Tell the ones Who did me favors I spent the whole year Halfway gone Now I’m learning How to stay Tell everybody I’m still here Not forever Just today Still here Still here Not forever Just today Still here Still here I’m still here Anyway I’m not saying I’m better I’m not saying I don’t care I woke up And for a minute I was glad That I was here.
