Fluorescent halo Steel-frame sky Eighteen years breathing Like a sentence gone by [Verse 1] I took from two souls what was never mine Called it survival, but it crossed that line Thought I was stealing back a childhood stolen But broken hands still leave others broken Pain don’t pay debts, it circulates blood Turns boys into storms, turns grief into mud I wasn’t chasing evil, I was chasing control With a furnace in my chest and a fracture for a soul Blue lights baptised me in roadside flame Like God knew my face but not my name Cuffs on my wrists, world gone still First time in years I had nothing to kill [Pre-Chorus] Then the door slammed shut Like a judge with no face And every ghost I buried Started pacing the place [Chorus] I was two doors down from heaven One floor under hell Blaming every hand that broke me For the hands I broke myself Two doors down from heaven With my name inside a file I wasn’t born a monster I was missing for a while [Verse 2] Cell block breathing like an animal chained Men with stone eyes hiding biblical pain Mattress thin as mercy, walls thick as blame Everybody there had a number for a name I heard keys like church bells, steps like drums Heard grown men weep where the daylight numbs Silence in jail ain’t silence at all It’s every memory dragging nails down the wall Mama in chains, Dad in a borrowed life Brother somewhere bleeding through his own night And me in a box with my fists gone still Learning trauma can harden into will [Pre-Chorus] No street to run No crowd to wear Just me and the child I abandoned in there [Chorus] I was two doors down from heaven One floor under hell Blaming every hand that broke me For the hands I broke myself Two doors down from heaven With my name inside a file I wasn’t born a monster I was missing for a while [Bridge] I hurt people That truth don’t bend Pain explains the fire But it don’t cleanse the sin I was once a child Nobody came to claim But grown men still answer For the damage in their name Breaking cycles isn’t poetry It’s blood under the nail It’s facing every mirror When the excuses fail [Final Chorus] I was two doors down from heaven With the devil in my chest Learning every wound I carried Could still wound somebody else Two doors down from heaven But I saw it through the bars If I ever leave this darkness I won’t hand it to another heart [Outro] Fluorescent halo Steel-frame sky I met the boy I buried And watched him cry
