My mind is a crowded room Too many thoughts Too many questions Too many versions of tomorrow Everybody says Just let it go If I knew how to do that Don’t you think I would’ve by now My mind never rests Never slows down One little thought Turns the whole world around Did I say too much Did I say it wrong Why’s the same damn question Playing all night long My mind never rests But neither do I Still standing here Still surviving the night Did I lock the door Did I send that text Did they take that wrong What happens next One thought Two thoughts Three thoughts Four Now I’m checking things I already checked before Running through scenarios Playing every possibility My anxiety be talking Like it’s trying to protect me The world moves slow But my mind moves quickly Everybody sees the spiral Except the girl living it Looking for certainty Looking for guarantees Trying to find peace Inside a brain that never sleeps Breathe in Breathe out Count to four Feet on the ground I’ve been here before My mind never rests Never slows down One little thought Turns the whole world around Did I say too much Did I say it wrong Why’s the same damn question Playing all night long My mind never rests But neither do I Still standing here Still surviving the night I know what panic feels like I know what fear can do I know how one bad thought Can convince you it’s true Checking Rechecking Checking again Trying to make sense Of where the chaos begins Trying to keep everything clean Trying to keep everything safe Trying to stop disaster Before it ever takes shape It’s exhausting Honestly Sometimes I hate it But every single time Life knocks me down I make it Still here Still breathing Still showing up Still healing Still becoming The woman I was meant to be Maybe my mind is loud Maybe my heart feels everything Maybe I carry too much Maybe that’s why I sing Maybe I’m learning That strength doesn’t always look fearless Maybe strength is surviving The nights nobody sees My mind never rests Never slows down One little thought Turns the whole world around But I’m still here Still fighting Still holding on Still writing My mind never rests Maybe it never will But I’ve learned How to keep climbing the hill The storm still comes The thoughts still race But so do I Love, Kay
