[Verse] As I loosen my grip I am losing my self Losing my love Losing my health Not yet dead But aint nobody checking my pulse Sometimes I wonder If I am in Heaven or Hell Hell is a place on earth With your own rules Heaven is a place on earth With your own rules People tell me "calm down" And "relax" But I refuse Got to be careful Or you could be in the dirt soon Your mouth is your best friend But your worst tool People been telling me to quit But I won't stop 'Til my flow is as good As the first time First love I had you But you slipped through my fingertips Like sand And now you are just a dirt clod Back to the dirt In which you came Ashes to ashes I forgot your name Never been a single day Where I don't feel ashamed But I can't blame nobody But me 'Cause I was to blame I had you I was sure that I had you You were close But yet You were so far My precious treasure So dear to my heart A silver diamond You were my shooting star My baby My sugar My sweetie pie But I was the monster In disguise Don't cry Dear No need for teary eyes You were beautiful Before you realized And now [Pre-Chorus] I'mma let you do what you wanna do While I loosen my grip While I lose my self While I lose my love While I lose my health I think I might be dead Someone check my pulse Please I'm begging I need your help And now [Chorus] I don't know what to do with myself And I don't know what to do with my health And I don't know what to do with my life And I don't know what to do with my mind And I don't know what to do with my heart And I don't know what to do with my time And I don't know what to do with my health And I don't know what to do with myself And I don't know what to do with my mind And I don't know what to do with my life And I don't know what to do
