Everybody Thinks You're A Saint

[Verse 1 — clean male melodic vocals] I don’t know how long I’ve spent this time around you A victim trapped inside my own horror movie Living in a house full of people Tell me why I feel alone There’s a rage inside I cannot let escape Coming from directions I can’t control So I swallow every fucking word And bury it deep inside my soul [Pre-Chorus — clean male melodic vocals] Living with a narcissist It ain’t no fucking picnic I bury myself inward Just to fucking survive it [Chorus — Gregorian chant vocals] Everybody thinks you’re a saint If they only knew Everybody sees the mask They never see the truth I sleep alone I eat alone I exist alone with you Everybody thinks you’re a saint IF THEY ONLY KNEW [Verse 2-clean male vocals melodic] It gets even harder When there are others I have to protect You think you know everything So I’m left cleaning up the wreck I disappear into my music The only outlet keeping me sane Until the outside world comes crawling in And drags me back again [Verse 3 — male clean vocals] I gave up things I fucking loved Comic books given away Pieces of myself surrendered Because surrender became trust You knew exactly what they meant to me You knew exactly what you could do Every little thing I let disappear Was another piece controlled by you [Breakdown — clean male angelic vocals] Piss you off You destroy my things Teach me a lesson Like a spoiled fucking child You scratched my friend’s DVD Thinking that it belonged to me I replaced what you destroyed And swallowed the rage inside of me [Chorus-Gregorian chant vocals] Everybody thinks you’re a saint If they only knew Everybody sees the mask They never see the truth I sleep alone I eat alone I exist alone with you Everybody thinks you’re a saint YOU AIN’T [Bridge — clean male vocals over funeral guitars] Sometimes I wish I could go back Leave you standing on those steps Turn around and walk away Before there was anything to regret I want to walk away now But two reasons keep me here So I carry what I have to carry Another day Another year [Gregorian Climax -clean male vocals] And somehow through all this darkness I never surrendered my life I still fucking love being alive And I will not give you that prize No final victory No stamp of approval No satisfaction Watching me disappear [Outro — clean male vocals melodic ] At the end of the day Maybe I’m not really that broken Maybe every scar I carry Means something in me survived You tried to convince me That something inside me was wrong But the only thing that’s broken… Is you. IS. FUCKING. YOU.