One Less Fool (One More Soul) [ICEWAVE]

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I will not go into details on how I found myself feeling that way years ago, because then we will be here for a long time. Also, this is supposed to be more about the general feeling, and not hyper fixating on things specific to me (although I dip into that a little).

I made this song as a result of me searching through one of my old batches of notes, and I found some things I had written when I was in a very, very dark place. Finding what I had written down back then prompted me to dispose of those writings for good, and write this song as a "talk" I guess you could say between the younger me, and me today. I am still a young man, 21 right now, but my head, and my heart are stronger than ever, and more matured.

I want to make sure you all know that I am not having those dark thoughts anymore, even though the memories still persist. I have never been happier than I am in these recent times. I hope you all believe me when I say that, so I am going to say it again.

I AM ALRIGHT. The Jester is not going anywhere he can't come back from.

If anything, this is me closing the book, and putting it away on the shelf. I have accepted my past grief, and troubles as proof of my own strength.

What else is there to say now? Well, this was a hard song to write, and make. I felt like I had to make it a longer song (8:35) to symbolize how long these struggles can be for people unfortunate enough to be in a similar situation.

Right now, as I write this preamble, I am debating even releasing this one. I probably will, but I am not sure if it will be released on the same day as I finished it or not. It all depends on timing, I suppose.

Take care of yourselves. (Don't worry, I am taking care of myself as well.) 🃏🧊

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Ok kid, speak up, let your heart out
Tell me what it was all like

You were there, you know what happened
Why do you need me to say it, relive it?
I don't want to go back to where we almost said "The End"
Are you trying to see if I can solve a puzzle you don't get?
Since when did we get this introspective?
Was it before or after what they did?
Either way, I shouldn't be so reflective
I'm just you, as a kid

But fine, you want me to say it that bad?
Alright, but this won't make me any less sad

This place nearly had one less fool
We had no one at home, no one at school
"There's that weird guy again, don't look
Always quiet, never speaking, keeping his nose in that book"
Would have talked to them, if they had something in their heads
But no, they would've preferred me dead
(Almost got their wish too)

So what more do you need me to say?
I had enough of everything, the pain inside and out
Do we have to go back to those days?
When it felt like we had no mouth
No, those pills they gave me never fixed a thing
Just made me lose my soul
All those disgusting drugs would ever bring
Was a sense of even less control

Ok, let me stop you right there
There are a few things you forgot
I do remember how it felt "does anyone care?"
Some of them did, even when you started to rot
Your pain was great, I still feel it too
But you should know, it did get better
Sure, it felt like there was nothing else we could do
But just wait, one day skies will be clearer

This place will have one more soul
You will get back your control
Your world will change, and your mind will grow
And this pain, will just be a memory, you know
It was such a long, hard, and exhausting war
Our bodies may be sore...
(But I am so proud of you)

I know, the road is still very long for you
But you have the strength to make it through
You will have a voice again some day
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© 2025  The JesterMC

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Hey, I don't usually give out content warnings for my songs, but this one I feel like I have to ⚠This song, and preamble speaks about themes of suicide⚠ In particular themes of suicide, depression, and hopelessness my mind was subjected to as a teen. I will not go into details on how I found myself feeling that way years ago, because then we will be here for a long time. Also, this is supposed to be more about the general feeling, and not hyper fixating on things specific to me (although I dip into that a little). I made this song as a result of me searching through one of my old batches of notes, and I found some things I had written when I was in a very, very dark place. Finding what I had written down back then prompted me to dispose of those writings for good, and write this song as a "talk" I guess you could say between the younger me, and me today. I am still a young man, 21 right now, but my head, and my heart are stronger than ever, and more matured. I want to make sure you all know that I am not having those dark thoughts anymore, even though the memories still persist. I have never been happier than I am in these recent times. I hope you all believe me when I say that, so I am going to say it again. I AM ALRIGHT. The Jester is not going anywhere he can't come back from. If anything, this is me closing the book, and putting it away on the shelf. I have accepted my past grief, and troubles as proof of my own strength. What else is there to say now? Well, this was a hard song to write, and make. I felt like I had to make it a longer song (8:35) to symbolize how long these struggles can be for people unfortunate enough to be in a similar situation. Right now, as I write this preamble, I am debating even releasing this one. I probably will, but I am not sure if it will be released on the same day as I finished it or not. It all depends on timing, I suppose. Take care of yourselves. (Don't worry, I am taking care of myself as well.) 🃏🧊 ----------------------------------------------------------- Ok kid, speak up, let your heart out Tell me what it was all like You were there, you know what happened Why do you need me to say it, relive it? I don't want to go back to where we almost said "The End" Are you trying to see if I can solve a puzzle you don't get? Since when did we get this introspective? Was it before or after what they did? Either way, I shouldn't be so reflective I'm just you, as a kid But fine, you want me to say it that bad? Alright, but this won't make me any less sad This place nearly had one less fool We had no one at home, no one at school "There's that weird guy again, don't look Always quiet, never speaking, keeping his nose in that book" Would have talked to them, if they had something in their heads But no, they would've preferred me dead (Almost got their wish too) So what more do you need me to say? I had enough of everything, the pain inside and out Do we have to go back to those days? When it felt like we had no mouth No, those pills they gave me never fixed a thing Just made me lose my soul All those disgusting drugs would ever bring Was a sense of even less control Ok, let me stop you right there There are a few things you forgot I do remember how it felt "does anyone care?" Some of them did, even when you started to rot Your pain was great, I still feel it too But you should know, it did get better Sure, it felt like there was nothing else we could do But just wait, one day skies will be clearer This place will have one more soul You will get back your control Your world will change, and your mind will grow And this pain, will just be a memory, you know It was such a long, hard, and exhausting war Our bodies may be sore... (But I am so proud of you) I know, the road is still very long for you But you have the strength to make it through You will have a voice again some day ----------------------------------------------------------- © 2025 The JesterMC

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