[Verse 1] I learned your birthdays, your coffee, your scars Kept spare apologies folded in jars I answered every call before it could ring Made room at the table, gave away everything I wore every silence like somebody’s coat Held all your weather inside my throat Now I count the names carved under my skin And wonder what kind of love lets me in [Pre-Chorus] I gave until giving became my disguise A generous hand with a locked pair of eyes If you saw what is left when the crowd disappears Would you call it a heart, or a handful of years? [Chorus] I feel unworthy of love I spent mine like water on everyone I poured out the best of me Now there’s barely a drop when you reach for me I feel unworthy of love Too many doors, too many vows undone If you hold me, hold me slow I’m learning I’m more than the places I go [Verse 2] I knew how to listen, I knew how to stay I made my own hunger wait another day Your emergencies slept in the room by my bed While my little disasters went quietly unfed I called it devotion, I called it repair But love without limits can vanish in air Now kindness feels guilty, and rest feels like theft I’m afraid that a heart can be emptied of depth [Pre-Chorus] I gave until giving became my disguise A generous hand with a locked pair of eyes If you saw what is left when the crowd disappears Would you call it a heart, or a handful of years? [Chorus] I feel unworthy of love I spent mine like water on everyone I poured out the best of me Now there’s barely a drop when you reach for me I feel unworthy of love Too many doors, too many vows undone If you hold me, hold me slow I’m learning I’m more than the places I go [Bridge] Don’t praise the wound for surviving the knife Don’t make my exhaustion proof I was right I can draw one clean line and still care what you need I can leave some light in the house for me Maybe love isn’t measured by how much I lose Maybe a yes can be honest, a no can be true I’m not the sum of the hands I have fed There is still a pulse here, still blood in my head [Final Chorus] I feel unworthy of love But I’m done spending myself to become someone’s sun I can keep a little warmth for me Let it gather slowly, let it teach me to breathe I feel unworthy of love Still I’m standing where the old fear was If you hold me, hold me slow I’m more than the places I go [Outro] I gave too much, but I’m not gone A heart can close and still beat on I gave too much, but I’m not gone I can come back, I can come back
