Tortured

I wake up drowning in my own regrets In the night I wish I could forget My heart is breaking but nobody knows I'm bleeding Where the silence grows Your words are poison inside my veins I wear a smile to disguise the pain Every breath feels harder to survive I'm dead inside but still alive I'm tortured by the things you said A thousand voices inside my head You broke my soul, you stole my light I'm losing myself every single night I'm screaming silently, can't you see There's nothing left of the old me You left me drowning in misery This pain is all that's left of me I hate the memories you left behind Your ghost keeps crawling through my mind I gave you everything I had Now all that's left is something sad I'm telling myself that I'll be okay You never felt the price I pay I'm tired of hiding all these scars And falling apart behind closed doors I'm tortured by the things you said A thousand nightmares inside my head You crush my heart, you kill my trust Turned everything we had to dust I'm screaming silently, can't you see There's nothing left you couldn't take from me You left me drowning in misery And now this pain is haunting me I'm still here, but I'm not the same A shattered soul that bears your name Tortured forever by yesterday Trying to survive what won't fade away