Verse 1 I count every slammed door Like a tally on my skin Every plan that falls to pieces Feels like proof I shouldn’t win Three little hearts are hurting And I don’t know what to do I keep reaching out to save them But my hands keep falling through And every angry word Becomes a voice inside my head Saying, See, you did it again You should’ve loved them better instead I’m standing in the wreckage Of a thousand things I tried Wondering how somebody loving this hard Can still get everything wrong tonight Pre-Chorus Maybe I’m the storm Maybe I’m the weight Maybe everyone I love Would breathe easier if I changed But somewhere underneath it There’s a quieter truth I know I wouldn’t hurt this badly If I didn’t love them so Chorus Why does the universe keep saying no? Every time I build a bridge It disappears below Why do I keep feeling Like the failure in the room? Like loving me is heavy Like I only bring the gloom I’m so tired of believing I’m the reason everybody breaks Calling every bad day Another one of my mistakes Maybe I’m not a burden Maybe I’m just tired and scared Maybe being unable to fix it all Doesn’t mean I wasn’t there Verse 2 My children wear their anger Like thunder in their bones And I take every lightning strike Like I built the storm alone I want to make it better I want to take away the ache But motherhood never promised Every hurting thing could be erased So I replay every moment Every place I could’ve known Every time I had three fires And only two hands of my own I tell myself, You failed them Like failure is my name But maybe love can still be real Even when nothing goes the way I prayed Pre-Chorus I’ve been measuring my worth By everybody else’s pain As if their tears mean I’m the one Who somehow made the rain But maybe they can struggle And I can still be good Maybe love isn’t making life painless Maybe it’s staying when you could Chorus Why does the universe keep saying no? Every time I build a bridge It disappears below Why do I keep feeling Like the failure in the room? Like loving me is heavy Like I only bring the gloom I’m so tired of believing I’m the reason everybody breaks Calling every bad day Another one of my mistakes Maybe I’m not a burden Maybe I’m just tired and scared Maybe being unable to fix it all Doesn’t mean I wasn’t there Bridge What if I’m not the mistake? What if I’m just bruised? What if all these closed doors Don’t mean I was refused? What if my children’s anger Isn’t proof that I am wrong? What if they need a mother Who keeps showing up imperfect and strong? What if “I couldn’t save today” Is different from “I failed”? What if love still counts Even when the rescue never sailed? What if surviving this night Is enough for me to do? What if tomorrow needs me Even if tonight I can’t see through? Final Chorus Maybe the universe isn’t saying no Maybe I’m standing in a chapter Where I cannot see where it goes Maybe I’m not the villain Maybe I’m hurting too Maybe the people that I love Don’t need perfection—just me, true I’m done turning every heartbreak Into evidence against my name I’m more than all the moments That didn’t go the way I prayed And if my hands are shaking I can still hold on somehow I don’t have to fix forever I just have to make it through right now Outro I am tired I am scared I am hurting I am here And maybe being here Is not failure. Maybe being here Is love.
