living on my deathbed

All the best days of my life have passed me by This messed up world still wants my best try Give a hundred percent You gotta pay rent Drag your ass to church on Sunday, repent I’m trying Why does it feel like I’m dying? I don’t want to live down here but baby I’m stranded These are the lousiest cards I’ve ever been handed The rain pours down, the ground gets wetter, I wear this shame like a scarlet letter Painted on my head Living on my deathbed The doc gave one for pain and one for depression ‘Cause I’ve never been good at cleaning up messes And now, I’ve got bills To pay for these pills But I never get better, they’re making me ill He’s lying I still feel like I’m dying I don’t want to live down here but baby I’m stranded These are the lousiest cards I’ve ever been handed The rain pours down, the ground gets wetter, I wear this pain like a barbed wire sweater Hanging by a thread Living on my deathbed I’m filled with holes like a pair of blue jeans I patch one up then rip a new seam Then drive off course, into the well I swear rock bottom feels like hell So far down and there’s no way out I claw the walls and I scream and shout I curse at God and he yells right back You’re gonna learn never talk to me like that I don’t want to live down here but baby I’m stranded These are the lousiest cards I’ve ever been handed The rain pours down, the ground gets wetter Thought it couldn’t get worse but I should’ve known better Just like I said I don’t want to live down here but baby I’m stranded These are the lousiest cards I’ve ever been handed The rain pours down, the ground gets wetter I wear this shame like a scarlet letter Painted on my head Living on my deathbed Just like I said I’m livin’ on my deathbed