(Song: 4 AM Thoughts - Full Lyrics) [Verse 1] The glow from my phone paints the ceiling blue Just checked your last seen, like I always do Scrolling through pictures from a year ago When I didn't know how far you'd go And I tell myself to let it be But the silence is so loud it's screaming back at me [Pre-Chorus 1] The clock's hands are thieves in the pale moonlight Stealing the peace I'm clutching so tight. [Chorus] God, oh I can't sleep 'cause you're on my mind It's 4 AM and I'm losing time That I don't need, then I hate that I I can't sleep when you can sleep just fine (Yeah, you can sleep just fine) [Verse 2] I count all the reasons, I tally the cost Of every single thing that we lost My brain’s on a carousel, spinning the same scene Of what you meant and what you might have meant to me I rehearse conversations I'll never have Trapped in this aftermath [Pre-Chorus 2] And it circles and starts like a punch to the chest This ache in my ribs with nowhere to rest. [Chorus] God, oh I can't sleep 'cause you're on my mind It's 4 AM and I'm losing time That I don't need, then I hate that I I can't sleep when you can sleep just fine [Bridge] (Whispered, as if into a phone) "Hey... you up?" (A long pause, silence is the only reply) "No, of course you're not." "Maybe I should just... call." (Beat. A broken, self-aware laugh) "God, what would I even say?" "Sorry for... everything? For nothing?" "It's just... I keep rewriting how it ends." "But the ending's written. And I'm the only one still reading." [New Refrain] And the ghost of your laugh is a phantom pulse A rhythm my heart can't erase or convulse I'm haunted by all of the almosts and nears The deafening sound of the quiet for years So I scream at the walls of this room in my head 'Cause it's better than listening to what the silence said. [Instrumental Build & Crescendo] (Music swells to a peak: driving drums, layered synths, emotional guitar riff, then suddenly pulls back to a fragile, spacious bed of piano and ambient sound for the final choruses.) [Final Choruses - Increasing in Yearning] (Chorus 1 - Raw & Urgent) God, oh I can't sleep 'cause you're on my mind! It's 4 AM and I'm losing time! That I don't need, then I hate that I— I CAN'T SLEEP WHEN YOU CAN SLEEP JUST FINE! (Chorus 2 - Desperate & Pleading) (Music rebuilds, more percussive and yearning. Vocals strain with emotion, cracking on high notes. Ad-libs begin.) God, oh I CAN'T SLEEP ‘cause you’re on my MIND! It’s 4 AM and I’m LOSING all my time! That I don’t need… (what I don’t need)… then I HATE that I— I can’t sleep… (no, I can’t)… when you can sleep just fine… (Do you even know? Do you even care at all?) (Chorus 3 - Exhausted & Broken) (Music simplifies again to almost just vocals and a faint, echoing piano. Voice is weathered, breathy, full of fragile ache. Lines are delivered with pauses, as if barely able to form the words.) God… (a whisper) oh I can’t sleep… ‘Cause you’re… you’re on my mind… It’s 4 AM… and I’m losing… time… That I don’t need… (then I hate…) Then I hate… that I… I can’t sleep… when you… When you can sleep… …just… …fine… [Outro] (A long, tired sigh is audible. The last piano note hangs and decays.) …fine. (Total silence.)
