Verse 1 I was only a little girl, with sunlight in my eyes. I didn't know what hatred was. I didn't know that fathers could wish their children gone. I looked at you with innocent eyes, waiting for you to smile. I thought your hands were meant to hold me. I thought your voice meant safety. I didn't know you were already letting me go. Verse 2 There was a letter. Words I was never meant to understand. Words saying you wanted me dead when I was still a child. A little girl. Small hands. A heart that still believed her father loved her. And somehow those words followed me for years. Pre-Chorus I keep wondering what I did wrong. Was I too loud? Too difficult? Not enough? Why was I born into a heart that never wanted mine? Chorus I was just a little girl looking up at her father. I didn't know you hated me. I didn't know that behind your eyes there was something I could never fix. I would've loved you with everything I had. I would've spent my whole life trying to make you proud. But you made me feel like my existence was something you wanted erased. Verse 3 Sometimes I look at old pictures and I don't recognize myself. There she is. That little girl with the stupid, beautiful smile. She doesn't know. She doesn't know what her father wrote. She doesn't know how much that love she's waiting for will hurt her someday. And God, I wish I could go back and hold her. Bridge I'd tell her, "It wasn't your fault." "You didn't do anything wrong." "You were only a child." But she would probably ask me, "Then why didn't he love me?" And I don't know what answer could ever be enough for that question. Chorus I was just a little girl with my whole heart in my hands. And you couldn't love me. You couldn't see the child standing in front of you. I kept waiting for a father who was never coming. I kept believing there had to be something inside me worth loving. And every year that belief became a little harder to find. Verse 4 Now I'm older. But some nights I'm still that little girl. Still standing in front of you. Still looking up. Still waiting. Still wondering why the person who gave me life couldn't give me love. And I am so tired of carrying a question that never had an answer. Chorus I don't know how to stop hurting from something that happened before I could even understand it. I don't know how to forget the words that were written about a child who only wanted her father's love. I was innocent. I was small. I was yours. And I loved you with those happy, unaware eyes. You were supposed to protect me. Instead, you became the reason I spent so many years wondering if I deserved to exist at all. Outro Sometimes I close my eyes and see that little girl again. She is looking at you. Smiling. She doesn't know yet. And I wish I could reach through the years and take her hand. I wish I could tell her that she never needed to earn her father's love. That she was already enough. That she was always enough. Even if he couldn't see it. Even if he never loved her the way a father should. She was still just a little girl who deserved to be loved.
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