(ACAPELLA SPOKEN VERSE) I'm reading the backs of my eye lids,/ While I Continue to battle my Consciousness,/ I don't know if I can Accomplish this,/ Bottoms of bottles,/ Mental abolishment,/ Sanity vanishing,/ There is no stopping this,/ Tighten the rope,/ Removing the obstacles,/ I'm gonna float,/ Suffer the consequence,/ (VERSE 1) I don't see a way out or a way up,/ I got a gut feeling something ain't right,/ The brighter the days the darker the nights,/ Shadows should only exist when there's light,/ Accepting the darkness into my life,/ I'm numbing my senses dulling this knife,/ River of red i feel so alive,/ It's all by design I die in due time,/ Time is what i"m dreaming of,/ But the nightmare is now,/ My thoughts steady dragging me and slowing me down,/ I'd tell you that I'm sorry but that truth can't be found,/ Bottle after bottle thoughts of you start to drown,/ If it all ends now what did i leave behind,/ A legacy of nothing still is nothing but a lie,/ Tell me what you see when you open your eyes,/ Cause I can only trust when I close mine,// I can only trust when I close mine// I can only trust when I close mine// (VERSE 2) Beaten by ridicule,/ You shouldn't do this,/ You shouldn't rap,/ You shouldn't pursue this,/ You fucking Judas,/ Lyrical Cyanide, come and consume this,/ Left the shadows, ate right from my plate,/ Taste the apple get bit by the snake,/ Dance with the devil, call it a date,/ Meet at the gate, determine my fate,/ Expressing depression, reflecting intentions,/ Intently forgetting that all of this tension has made me a monster,/ Made me,/ Made me,/ Made Me A Monster./ Loose lips sink ships, I'm feeling so Titanic,/ High heels in a minefield, wording so orgasmic,/ Machine like work ethic, flow so organic,/ Burning bridges, building barriers, ending the problematic,/ Fires rising, can't extinguish, this chapter I have to finish,/ Bar by bar beat by beat my hunger became replenished,/ Fear relinquished, vanished from existence,/ No repentance, served my sentence,/ Mark my words the pen and paper cage this madness, no admissions,/ (VERSE 3) I'll bite the hand that feeds and take a trip down this rabbit hole,/ Lose control? can't lose what I never really had before,/ I act like I'm ok, hide the scars of past battles,/ With the demons in the shadows, nightmares and sleep paralysis,/ I'm screaming and I'm yelling and my breathing getting heavy,/ The realization is that no ones gonna come and save me,/ But the truth is in this world I'm not the one that needs the saving,/ See I savor the pain, the agony, the hate, and the frustration,/ What doesn't kill a man only makes him stronger,/ But the weakness of the psychy only makes the mind wander,/ Wonder if the voices can be muted to be heard no longer?/ The reflection in the mirror shares the thoughts of the monster/
