reason for the rain(cover)

[Verse 1] I wake up in a house that don’t feel like home Reaching for a son that ain’t in this room Coffee’s cold and the silence gets loud I keep talking to a ceiling like it owes me somehow Used to think I was steering this whole damn ride Now I’m just a passenger, staring outside Watching the mile markers pass like regret Everything I thought I had, I ain’t got it yet [Pre-Chorus] And I know — I know I ain’t the one who’s holding the wheel I know — there’s a hand out there bigger than steel So I ask, “Is this the plan, is this how it’s supposed to feel?” [Chorus] Fuck no, I don’t wanna understand it Fuck no, I ain’t ready to demand it But I’m on my knees anyway, hands up to the gray Fuck no, I’m not the one in control Fuck no, but I’m letting go of the road ‘Cause somewhere past the pain, there’s a reason for the rain [Verse 2] 3 AM, I still drive to that door Muscle memory forgets it ain’t mine anymore Used to knock twice and he’d open it wide Pull me in from the cold like I never left his side Now I just sit in the car with the engine still on Staring at a porch light till the feeling is gone I ain’t allowed to knock, I ain’t allowed to stay But some nights the missing drives me back anyway [Pre-Chorus] And I know — I know I ain’t the one who’s holding the wheel I know — there’s a hand out there bigger than steel So I ask, “Is this the plan, is this how it’s supposed to feel?” [Chorus] Fuck no, I don’t wanna understand it Fuck no, I ain’t ready to demand it But I’m on my knees anyway, hands up to the gray Fuck no, I’m not the one in control Fuck no, but I’m letting go of the road ‘Cause somewhere past the pain, there’s a reason for the rain [Bridge] (half-spoken, building) Maybe control was never mine to lose Maybe this weight’s a bridge, not a noose Maybe the door I can’t knock on no more Is teaching me how to open a different door I’m not asking for answers, just asking to breathe Just asking for strength I don’t have to believe But something’s holding me up when I can’t hold myself So fuck no — I won’t say it’s nothing, I’ll say it’s something else [Final Chorus] (bigger, layered vocals) Fuck no, I don’t wanna understand it Fuck no, I ain’t ready to demand it But I’m on my knees anyway, hands up to the gray Fuck no, I’m not the one in control Fuck no, but I’m letting go — of the road ‘Cause somewhere past the pain, there’s a reason There’s a reason for the rain [Outro] (soft, fading) I’ll knock on a new door someday Till then I’ll let the mile markers pass Fuck no… I’m not in control But I’m still here I’m still here