Only When I'm Ready

[Verse 1] The clock keeps bleeding in the dark Important doors stay locked, half-open I tell myself "not yet, not yet" While the weight of everything unspoken, Settles like ash on the floor Distractions appear at the worst hour A sudden sting, a familiar haunt Pulling the thread until I unravel slower [Chorus] Only when I'm ready Only when it fits Time's wasting away I'm breaking apart in bits Time is never kind To those who want to live How many more days? What is left to give? [Verse 2] Pain and loss sit quiet in the room They never knock, they never leave The people near me smile and speak, Of ordinary, weightless things They don't see the battle in my chest, Or the list of lives I still owe I move through days like borrowed skin Alone inside with nothing to show [Chorus] Only when I'm ready Only when it fits Time's wasting away I'm breaking apart in bits Time is never kind To those who want to live How many more days? What is left to give? [Bridge] Is there ever a clean hour? A moment where the world goes still? I keep waiting for the perfect light While the dark does what it will I try to outrun the next wave But it always finds the open wound Maybe readiness is just a myth We tell ourselves so we don't move too soon [Outro] Only when I'm ready... (Only when it fits) Time keeps taking what it wants And I'm still learning how to live (Only when I'm ready...) Or maybe never... I'll start the next thing in the quiet Before the quiet starts again © Chrome Station 2026 All Rights Reserved