There's nothing left

There's nothing left Nothing left... You didn’t hit me, you tore me apart smiled while you cut, tought me to starve I kept explaining, you kept enjoying called it honesty, I called it destroying watched you get colder the less I spoke Every truth I had turned into a joke bent myself just to stay fucking readable You made a game out of me being reachable thought pain meant it still meant something Thought bleeding meant I was still touching Didn’t know I was digging my grave While you destroyed me in my own space You didn’t lose me You used me There’s a difference I learned too late There’s nothing left You didn’t break me, you finished the job Only chaos inside, like a crazy shock You took the last thing I tried to save Turned my heart into trash There’s nothing left I checked I really fucking tried You said I was too much, then too numb Too loud when I cried, too quiet when I was done moved the line till I couldn’t stand Then blamed me for who I am I stopped trusting my own skin Stopped knowing where you end and I begin Every apology tasted rehearsed You got better, I just got worse You kept on laughing, living light I stayed inside learning how to cry at night With the echo of your voice in my head Telling me this is what love gets I didn’t fall apart all at once Just disappeared, and now I'm gone There’s nothing left No warmth where your hands used to be Just habits pretending to be me You fed on every doubt I had Till empty felt like progress There’s nothing left And silence hurts the fucking worst I miss being real Just miss reacting without fear Miss when someone comes near Wondering how I feel waited for rage, for my body to explode Thought it would end, if I only showed If this is surviving, it’s brutally clean Not a single warning – just a gap in between There’s nothing left You ripped the rest out of my chest I passed the point of feeling sad I’m not dramatic, I’m just done You killed it all, i tried to run There’s nothing left And I’m the proof you won There's nothing left Nothing left If you’re wondering where I went I stayed Till there was nothing left to spend