Silently My Heart Cries

So what If I’m in denial Don’t want to talk about it I’d rather go numb and crash out We both need closure The door left open I feel you slipping away But pushing you out is what I chose Needed you to stay but I had to leave Wanted full control You wanted my heart fully I feel like now I’ve made you cry more than I could make you happy It’s the last damn thing that I wanted because I love you so damn much baby And I no you must need honesty and clarity And I’m sitting here numbing absolutely everything Like this isn’t real It’s all a in the middle of the night bad dream And so what I don’t want to talk about it I’m in denial But what I can’t deny No matter how hard I’ve tried Or numb my pain by getting high Is the ache from inside Silently my heart cries You give me more than enough tries I’m a foolish man I couldn’t get it right I can’t live without you Not being in my life And deep within Life the stabbing of a deadly penetrating knife My soul screams