[Verse 1] People always wonder how you've got here Everyone's born innocent Who's the puppeteer? The outcome is an inevitable fear They want to know the past so they can stay clear I've become our monster, a sociopathic imposter So deranged that good behavior is a foster Temporary, so I'll be back to my merry ways Fantasizing about killing all these kids and raping girls I never play "What did he say?" "What did he say?" The thoughts inside my mind seem so foreign, but they're mine If I put them to a rhyme, set off alarms now run and hide [Chorus] When you're raped and raised, berated by constant cold shoulders All you're taught is hate, your love dissolves as fury smolders You see the devil's eyes and start to empathize I empathize with devil's eyes [Verse 2] Did you hear about the violence, Red Lake, Minnesota? Columbine was famous, but this one was better Let me tell the story for you Small town, stakes are high, break walls down Killed his girlfriend and his grandparents Went to school and fired errantly Ten killed in a class of 23, almost took out half of them 50% victory Bullied all his life, special programs gave him prozac, blamed for all his own strife Till he snapped and took it all back Is it wrong that I relate to the killer, not the victims? If my screws were any looser, then I'd die to those same symptoms [Chorus] When you're raped and raised, berated by constant cold shoulders All you're taught is hate, your love dissolves as fury smolders You see the devil's eyes and start to empathize I empathize with devil's eyes [Verse 3] I think back to some years ago. The same old mess born of tears I hold. A black sheep, and it's dark and dim... But I never knew that things could get far more grim... A darkened past is the first foray Into the depths of the quakes of my minds dismay. I guess the only thing that I can do is tell. Stories turned from memories of my waking hell. OUT WITH IT!!! - I was 11 or 12, tried washing the memories, details expelled. But there's no removing the bulk of the tell. My youth was corrupted by the slightest yell. There was a girl much older than me She was so fun and I thought she was pretty Just a naïve boy she found me witty And she thought it a pity that my life was shitty Mom was abusive I was in a new city She was 19 and I was just a kiddie Took me to her car and showed me a titty I said "please stop" but she showed me no pity Didn't know my brain would feel so dizzy Never would recover it happened too quickly Said it was fine but the tremor still upended me Addicted to women and then abused my family Talk to the doc present day as he scanned me He said when it's dark go ahead and take a xanny Planned out my life but nobody planned for me Reach beyond strife but nobody stands for me!. She told me I'd like it, She's older she knows! But I didn't like it, I kept crying no, I ran when it ended and spoke not a word. Except to a doctor who said staring stern. That I liked it for sure... That my mind was perverse... That I'd only get worse.... That I asked for this curse… [Chorus] When you're raped and raised, berated by constant cold shoulders All you're taught is hate, your love dissolves as fury smolders You see the devil's eyes and start to empathize I empathize with devil's eyes [Outro] (Ha ha ha ha) I've been raped and raised, paraded by constant cold shoulders But I fight their hate, tears on my face, my fury smolders. I see the devil's eyes and though I empathize My soul will rise Above the devil's eyes…
