Yeah I been pouring pain in a double cup Black roses floating, yeah I’m fucked up She said love me but she switch up quick Same hands that heal be the ones that cut I don’t sleep right, I don’t dream much Every night feel like I’m speeding up I mix love with drugs, I’m stuck in a rush Tryna fill the void but it’s never enough I don’t wanna die, but I don’t feel alive Every night feel like a gamble with my life I been fighting demons, they don’t fight fair They wait ‘til I’m alone, then they strike Heartbreak tattooed on my rib cage Pink pills, dark thoughts, late stage She love me when I’m at my lowest Said forever but she don’t stay I fell in love with the dark side Black fits, pale skin, sad eyes I tried love sober, it didn’t work So I get high just to pass time I don’t cry, I get faded I don’t heal, I just fake it Everybody say they love me But they only love the placement If I give you what’s left of me Promise you won’t take advantage I been screaming in the silence Now my anger speaking Spanish I’m not asking for a savior I’m just asking for the truth If you see me fucking drowning Would you jump or let me loose? Black roses in my cup Every sip remind me why I don’t trust love or luck I just live until I die Black roses in my cup Heart numb, soul stuck I been bleeding out inside Trying not to give up Uh Yeah Mind racing Heart vacant If I disappear tonight Don’t post me like you cared I was screaming in the silence You was never really there Black roses in my cup Yeah Until I die
