(Hook) They see the player but don't see inside the soul, Gotta stay inside my zone just to keep my own control. Tryna quiet all the noise, keep the pressure on the low, It's the only way to feel present, the only path I know. (Verse 1) Yeah, I walk these halls and feel the eyes, they watchin' every move, They got expectations for me, like I got somethin' to prove. I just nod and tell 'em "normal," 'cause I can't explain the pain, That inside it's like a blank spot, feelin' nothin' in the rain. That's why my mind is always locked in, I stay inside my zone, A way to hide the empty feelin' when I'm out here all alone. So I live inside the moment, scared to see where it'll go, Don't know who I am tomorrow, somethin' I don't wanna know. They see the highlight reel, they don't see the silent war, Just a kid who's tryna feel like he is worth what they root for. (Hook) They see the player but don't see inside the soul, Gotta stay inside my zone just to keep my own control. Tryna quiet all the noise, keep the pressure on the low, It's the only way to feel present, the only path I know. (Verse 2) And that's why I get distant, I ain't tryna be a jerk, But she's tryna see the real me, and my whole system starts to lurk. With that fear she'll see the person that I don't even know, So I hit 'em with the "nothing," gotta cancel out the show. My feelings stay behind a wall when I get in my zone, She askin' for the real me but there's no one there at home. This silence is my fortress, hope you finally understand, I'm protectin' the identity of a half-created man. It ain't about the weather, it's a different type of cold, The story of a youngin' who is scared of getting old, Scared of being figured out, 'cause I ain't got the answers yet, So I stay inside myself and pray to God that I forget. (Hook) They see the player but don't see inside the soul, Gotta stay inside my zone just to keep my own control. Tryna quiet all the noise, keep the pressure on the low, It's the only way to feel present, the only path I know. (Verse 3) But that conversation hit me, had to look me in the face, This comfort that I'm chasin' ain't about a time or place. It's about being solid, findin' somethin' real to be, Not a ghost in the machine, but the man I'm meant to see. Bein' locked inside my zone ain't weakness, it's the reason I could stand, It's the quiet in the chaos, a foundation for the plan. Now I'm buildin' up the person, the one I ain't gotta hide, The one who feels "comfortable" with who he is inside. So let 'em watch me, I'ma use the pressure like a tool, Used to hide to feel alive, now I'ma live to change the rules. That quiet's still a part of me, but I'm standin' up taller now, 'Cause I'm ready to be present, and I'm gonna show 'em how.
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