Title: Instead of Being Dirty All Male Version Intro If I could go back and Just relax Into the snow I’d learn to be warm Instead of shiver Verse 1 I used to think love Had to burn through the night Had to leave somebody shaking Had to feel like a fight I used to call it passion When it came with a scar Used to call it romance When it went too far But I was just a man With winter in my chest Trying to find heaven Where I never found rest And I took too much From a soft little flame Now I sip my wine slow And I whisper her name Chorus If I could go back and Just relax Into the snow I’d learn to be warm Instead of shiver If I could go back and Just relax in The fallen leaves I’d learn true love Instead of being dirty I’d let the cold pass I’d let my heart breathe I’d let soft hands hold What was hurting me If I could go back I’d go slow If I could go back I’d go slow Verse 2 I used to think wanting Meant I had to take space Used to let a sweet kiss Put a mask on my face I used to hear her breathing And forget my shame Used to call it love When it only knew my name But heat ain’t devotion And skin ain’t a vow Some arms feel holy Till the morning comes down So I learned from the silence Learned from the sheets Learned that fallen leaves Still hide dirty things Chorus If I could go back and Just relax Into the snow I’d learn to be warm Instead of shiver If I could go back and Just relax in The fallen leaves I’d learn true love Instead of being dirty I’d let the cold pass I’d let my heart breathe I’d let soft hands hold What was hurting me If I could go back I’d go slow If I could go back I’d go slow Bridge I don’t hate the night I don’t hate the wine I don’t hate her body For feeling like mine I don’t hate the room I don’t hate the flame I just hate how long I made love wear shame Maybe I was lonely Maybe I was young Maybe I mistook love For being wanted once Maybe snow can cover What a man won’t say Maybe leaves can fall And still show him the way Final Chorus If I could go back and Just relax Into the snow I’d learn to be warm Instead of shiver If I could go back and Just relax in The fallen leaves I’d learn true love Instead of being dirty I’d let the cold pass I’d let my heart breathe I’d let soft hands hold What was hurting me I’d stop calling hunger The same thing as need I’d stop calling touch The same thing as peace If I could go back I’d go slow If I could go back I’d go slow If I could go back I’d stay whole If I could go back I’d stay whole Outro If I could go back I’d go slower If I could go back I’d stay warm I’d learn true love Instead of being dirty
