[Verse 1] I’m in my head again, I’m in the red again, Tryna make a plan but the thoughts never let me in. Books on the table, clock on the wall, I been tryin’ to stand up while I’m ready to fall. Grad school got me actin’ like a ghost in the room, Smilin’ on the outside while I’m buried in the gloom. Everybody sayin’ “you got this,” I know, But they don’t see the pressure when the minutes move slow. [Pre-Chorus] I don’t need a miracle, I need a little peace, Need my mind to quiet down, need the weight to ease. I can focus for a second, then I fade again, Like I’m always almost there but I never really win. [Chorus] I just wanna lock in, I just wanna breathe, I just wanna be myself and still do what I need. Adderall got me focused, but it took my tone, Now I’m in the spotlight feeling all alone. I just wanna love you, but I’m running on low, Giving all I got and I got nowhere to go. I just wanna stay here, I don’t wanna break, But the thing that helps me live keeps stealing my face. [Verse 2] Used to be loud, used to be light, Now I’m in my room with the blinds drawn tight. Used to be funny, used to be free, Now I’m counting little pieces of the real me. Texting back late, missing calls again, I’m a bad friend, bad lover, good at losing my friends. It ain’t that I don’t care, it’s just hard to give, When your mind’s in a war and you’re still tryna live. [Pre-Chorus] I don’t need perfection, I need some room to feel, Need a heart that’s mine and a life that’s real. I can focus for a second, then I fade again, Like I’m always almost there but I never really win. [Chorus] I just wanna lock in, I just wanna breathe, I just wanna be myself and still do what I need. Adderall got me focused, but it took my tone, Now I’m in the spotlight feeling all alone. I just wanna love you, but I’m running on low, Giving all I got and I got nowhere to go. I just wanna stay here, I don’t wanna break, But the thing that helps me live keeps stealing my face. [Bridge] Piano in the dark, strings in the sky, I been holdin’ all this pain with a tired-ass smile. If I’m too much, if I’m too late, I’m still tryna be here, I’m still tryna stay. [Final Chorus] I just wanna lock in, I just wanna breathe, I just wanna be myself and still do what I need. Adderall got me focused, but it took my tone, Now I’m in the spotlight feeling all alone. I just wanna love you, but I’m running on low, Giving all I got and I got nowhere to go. I just wanna stay here, I don’t wanna break, But the thing that helps me live keeps stealing my face. [Outro] If you hear my silence, know it’s not goodbye, I’m just tryna find myself between the low and high.
