[intro - fade in] [Verse 1] Everybody says time heals wounds But nobody tells you time just teaches you how to carry them For a while I disappeared inside myself Wrapped in numbness like a winter coat I couldn't take off People called it strength But honestly, I was hiding My body knew before my mind did Every exit sign looked safer than every memory Every distraction felt smarter than every tear So I ran Not with my feet With my thoughts I became a professional escape artist Building walls so high even your voice couldn't climb them But one day I realized The pain wasn't chasing me I was carrying it [Pre-Chorus] No hug can fix this No prayer can rewind this No sentence ever spoken can put breath back in your lungs And that's the truth I hate And somehow love [Chorus] So I hit the manual override Held my heart against the fire and stayed alive Told my fight-or-flight system "No..." "Not this time." I won't run from what broke me I'll sit with it I'll feel it I'll let it carve its name across my ribs One day at a time One breath at a time One impossible morning at a time I'm putting myself back together Without you [Verse 2] People think vulnerability is standing in front of a crowd I don't I think vulnerability is sitting alone in a room When every cell in your body is begging you not to remember It's accepting pain without negotiating with it It's letting the wave hit Without building a dam I understand now why people can't do it Why some stay angry Why some stay numb Why some stay running Because becoming comfortable Inside your body's most uncomfortable experience Feels inhuman Like asking a broken bone to heal while still carrying weight Like asking the ocean not to drown you While teaching yourself to float [Pre-Chorus] And I swear Every instinct says retreat Every instinct says hide Every instinct says survive But survival isn't always healing [Chorus] So I hit the manual override Held my heart against the fire and stayed alive Told my fight-or-flight system "No..." "Not this time." I won't run from what broke me I'll sit with it I'll feel it I'll let it carve its name across my ribs One day at a time One breath at a time One impossible morning at a time I'm putting myself back together Without you [Bridge] The brain is a strange place You can change perspectives Rewrite habits Rebuild confidence Create discipline Learn patience Alter entire ways of thinking But grief Grief doesn't negotiate It sits where it wants For as long as it wants And no amount of intelligence can evict it I have learned every room in my own mind Yet I still cannot find the door That leads back to you [Breakdown] Maybe that's the lesson Not fixing Not forgetting Not winning Just carrying Learning how to carry something impossible Until impossible becomes familiar [Final Chorus] So I hit the manual override Every single day that I'm alive And some days I still lose Some days I still break Some days I still hear your name And the floor disappears beneath me But I'm here Still here Heart exposed Armor gone Feeling every ounce of what this costs One day at a time One breath at a time One memory at a time I'm not healing from losing you I'm learning how to live with it [Final Build] I've spent months learning the language of loss Learning that strength isn't lifting the weight It's refusing to drop it Because every road I've walked since you left Has your fingerprints on it I carried the weight I carried the questions I carried the silence I carried the day they told me you were gone For so long I thought healing meant letting go But letting go was never the lesson The lesson was learning how to love someone Who isn't here And somehow Still carry them everywhere [Final Explosion] AND I FEEL YOU IN THE PART OF ME THAT REFUSED TO BREAK I FEEL YOU IN THE NIGHTS I SURVIVED WHEN I THOUGHT I COULDN'T TAKE ONE MORE STEP ONE MORE BREATH ONE MORE MORNING WITHOUT YOU HERE I HEAR YOUR NAME INSIDE MY CHEST LOUDER THAN ALL OF MY FEARS BECAUSE LOSING YOU HURT LIKE HELL BUT LOVING YOU MADE ME WHO I AM YOU'RE IN THE ROADS THAT I DRIVE YOU'RE IN THE AIR WHEN I BREATHE AT NIGHT I STILL MISS YOU I STILL NEED YOU IF LOVE SURVIVES THEN PART OF YOU IS STILL ALIVE ALIIIIIIIIIVE [Outro] No hug can mend this wound No words can close it Nothing ever will But somewhere inside the pain Inside the fight Inside the unbearable truth I'm finding pieces of myself again And if that's strength It wasn't built from muscle It was built from staying When every part of me wanted to run Until I see you again [outro - slowly fade out]
