Verse 1) There was a shadow in the corner of the room I told myself it was just a passing gloom I painted on a smile, I learned to play the part While a silent, heavy winter froze my heart You’d ask me what was wrong, and I would lie Just said I’m tired, and turned away my eye I dug a hole inside my head, a place to hide and be And never saw that I was burying you with me (Chorus) Oh, the shame, it sticks to me like rain A cold and constant echo of the pain The shame of knowing that I held the key To a lock I let get rusted, just like me I let you down, I let our family down I let my friends down, all over this town But the heaviest truth that I have to own Is the shame of letting myself down, all alone (Verse 2) Thirteen years, we built it stone by stone A house of memories that we called our own But I was the weakness in the foundation frame A creeping crack that whispered my own name The words you spoke were quiet, clear, and low, "I love you, but it's time for you to go." The air was thick and still, you'd lost the will To share a home with someone standing still. (Chorus) Oh, the shame, it sticks to me like rain A cold and constant echo of the pain The shame of knowing that I held the key To a lock I let get rusted, just like me I let you down, I let our family down I let my friends down, all over this town But the heaviest truth that I have to own Is the shame of letting myself down, all alone (Bridge) They tell you "snap out of it," like it's a simple choice But I was drowning in the silence, couldn't find my voice Too proud to say I'm sinking, too ashamed to ask for help I just closed my eyes and blamed the world, and not my failing self By the time I reached for help, I only reached for air I walked out our front door, and left you standing there. (Verse 3) So I am learning how to carry all this weight, Instead of burying it behind a locked gate. I'm speaking truths I couldn't say before, That this disease is not a moral flaw. Depression isn't some cheap magic trick to fix, It's tangled wires a shaky hand unpicks. And maybe grace is not a finish line, But learning to forgive myself, one day at a time. (New Verse) Sitting in a quiet, sterile room, Picking through the wreckage and the gloom. Connecting every "why" to "what I did," Unearthing all the feelings that I hid. You speak it all until the words run clean, And build a bridge to where you could have been. It's not forgetting, it’s a slow release, To let the guilt go, and to find your peace. (Chorus) Oh, the shame, it sticks to me like rain But it’s a storm that I can stand in, not just pain. The shame still reminds me of the key That I am turning now, to set me free. I let you down, I let our family down I let my friends down, all over this town But the heaviest truth that I have to own Is I won't let myself stay down, all alone. (Outro) Now I'm grieving for a marriage that my sickness broke apart And living with the shame, but with a healing heart. Thirteen years... gone up in smoke, A lesson from a promise that I broke. The shame of packing that bag... The shame of turning the key... But they are not the only things that define me. The shame of walking away... But it won't have the final say.
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