Verse 1 I ruin good things accidentally That’s the part nobody sees They only notice after When I’m apologizing on my knees I care too much, then shut down Get overwhelmed and disappear Like my own thoughts become a storm Every time somebody gets near I wish my brain had an off switch Or just one night of quiet Instead of every little feeling Turning into something violent Pre-Chorus And the worst part is I know Exactly what I’m doing wrong Chorus I think I’m too much for my own mind Every thought cuts too deep sometimes And I hate how I let fear decide Who I keep and who I leave behind I don’t wanna be cold-hearted I just don’t know where to start with Fixing everything inside That keeps me awake at night Verse 2 I replay conversations endlessly Find new ways to hate myself Turn small mistakes into reasons Why I don’t deserve nobody else And I know people get tired Of trying to pull me out the dark When half the time I’m fighting them Just to protect a broken heart Pre-Chorus I know I’m hard to understand Hell, I barely understand me too Chorus I think I’m too much for my own mind Every thought cuts too deep sometimes And I hate how I let fear decide Who I keep and who I leave behind I don’t wanna be cold-hearted I just don’t know where to start with Fixing everything inside That keeps me awake at night Bridge Some nights the voices sound honest Telling me I’ll never change Telling me everybody leaves Eventually anyway And maybe that’s why I run first Before anybody can go Like losing people hurts less When you’re the one letting go Final Chorus But I’m tired of living like this Always hiding in my head Always turning love into something I’m convinced will end Maybe I deserve peace too Maybe healing’s possible Maybe I’m not too broken Just hurting and emotional Outro And if you feel this way too Maybe there’s hope for us both Maybe being human Just hurts more than we show
