I said I’d cut the line tonight I watched the screen, I watched it light I let it ring, I let it die Then called you back, I don’t know why I pace the room, I wear a groove I make a plan I never use I write it down, I cross it out You say my name, I lose my ground I had a spine, I felt it slip I had control, I lost my grip I hear your voice inside my head It loops the words I should’ve said You’re a bad habit I break, then I grab it Say I’m done, then I have it Every time, automatic You pull, I collapse I swear, then relapse No control, just static You’re a bad habit I lose my sleep, I lose the thread You take the space inside my head I try to focus, try to stay You twist my words, I drift your way I set the rules, I make them clear You bend them once, they disappear I feel it burn behind my teeth I bite it down, I let you speak I drew a line, I watched it fade I had the words, I couldn’t say I built it up to lock the door Then let you in like times before You’re a bad habit I break, then I grab it Say I’m done, then I have it Every time, automatic You pull, I collapse I swear, then relapse No control, just static Hands start to shake Buzz in my veins Try to resist Same thing again Say it’s the last time Say it’s the end I start to push back Then I give in You’re a bad habit I break, then I grab it Say I’m done, then I have it Every time, automatic You pull, I collapse I swear, then relapse No control, just static You’re a bad habit
