Not today..... its in your best interest To turn an walk the other way..... I'm just not feeling it... My anger I'm thinking about revealing it To whoever gets in the way Or got something to say..... It's.........off with their head Should've listened to what I said U were warned in the beginning Now look at u.looking silly Battery acid pulses my veins Vision stuck on red Every little smirk urks my brain... Maybe I Should've stayed in bed I don't know.its to late now .... Gota get it under control gotta figure out how........ Maybe scream out loud. Or just go numb an put my head down.... or hold my breath an count slow........mmmmmmmm Ok....here we go..........1........2........3........4 Shit......fuck good lord.i can't do this any more. Breath out an back in bullshit.... give it a Rest. Quit it..... my rage has me I admitt it .... nothing I can do .Just sit back an let it do what it decides.... I'm in it for the ride.... can't worry bout pride. I asked for forgiveness but got denied... so its off idle whos got a better plan than i do............not u........now we're on the gas at full throttle... Just hit myself in the head with whiskey bottle...I do that randomly just to make sure I'm not dreaming.cuz some shit I get myself into .dreaming is what it seemin. Always seem to place myself next to my demons....i cant believe it... I don't no.i use to have them under control. These days it multiple plys 4 Fold.it gets old.breathe an stay bold.......is the advice. But shit .........fuck........ they don't understand the sacrifice that I have to consider the price....all out of bottles of whiskey. Shit I need to feel dizzy.... so I guess It's a brick instead .. rear back.......crack!!! Right to the 4 head .I stood there steady .done dropped the brick was much to heavy.everything starting to spin.an there i stood .me an my grin.as everything fades out.it leaves one thing clear.that this is me right here.cold shivers the fear....it shakes it .rakes it .an my shadows takes it..... but it seems to break free and starts chasing me...threw my dreams past my ambitions.under my emotions an catches me in the transition.....there is am caught in the middle.fuck .....not another pickle. Already know it'll leave me miserable... so I hold my breath and count to 10.an jump right in.......swim or sink.that phrase didn't even make me blink.... cuz I already new what I had to do.an that was to make it to u.... so u can tell me it'll all be ok.eventho for u that's hard to say.but for what needs done.this is the only way ...that's how u get me threw the day.whats one more lie delivered with a sun ray..... not speaking loud just shining threw the clouds. Even knowing the lies we stand proud.... get up just to get knocked back down.but for you I'll crawl on my knees .as shamfulness leaves..... begging u to listen to my pleeds..u agreed to listen but with no guarantees...a lack of ambition fills the uncertainties. Week in Vision start to explain the mission.i know you would see it if u just take a listen.an then we both could enjoy what we been missing.eachother we could be kissing.in the car or in our own kitchen.... it would be great....I mean straight bitching... but i already know your not catchin what I'm pitchin..... I'm just wasting my breath. So what now.........what's next....doesn't really matter .I'm left with a huge complex.... why don't she understand.... why don't she see....... then suddenly it hits me..... she does understand. She does see.truth be told.she just don't want me...... which drops me again to my knees. Welcoming myself to try to break free from all new miseries .....mmmmmmm.ya yaaaa...mmmm live for yourself. Mmmm.die for somebody else....mmmm .. Try to eat what's on my plate...feels like getting brutally raped by Satan's soulmate...love an hate. ..how to separate. For fuck sake it i can't fuckin take it. not anymore. again on my knees on the floor. bout send cherry pie all over the door. its what u asked for. no matter what its say or do. I remain nothing to u.... what the fuck is wrong with me...mmmm then I see... I just got a clue.its not me....its fuckin you...your the problem. the problem thats needs solving.your fucked in the head.an needs crack in forhead.to wake up an recognize. all their lies. an look me in my eyes. an see the pain an how it stains... I try an try an try... u deny deny deny. you won't even give me a chance.you rather deal with dumb fucks .shit thats all you. good fucking luck.......mmmmmm mmmm not wasting away waiting on satans soulmate. its not my fate an thats just great......mmmmm. take the time to complicate any situation that would've needed confirmation of evidence that I needed u .like the day I fell for u.now id rather be eating thur a feeding tube...with my skin turning blue from the cold shoulder you threw my way....I love how u think im like the rest.maybe not the best but fuck put me2 the test.youll see that its checkmate to satans soulmate 4 fuck sake
