LORD HELP ME (THE URGE IS COMING BACK) Performed by: Da Beast Written by: 12Gauge858 Written 9/12/2026 Dark Cinematic Soul | Emotional Southern Blues | Slow-Burn Hip-Hop [Intro — Quiet, Exhausted Prayer] [Soft minor-key piano. Warm cello. Gentle heartbeat bass. Close microphone, natural breathing.] (Spoken quietly) Lord… It’s me again. I thought I was past this. Thought I buried that part of me… But lately… Something’s been stirring. (Long breath) And I don’t like how familiar it feels. Lord… Help me. [Verse 1 — Deep, Gritty, Soulful] I been trying, Lord, to walk a different road, Learning how to put down what I used to hold. Found a little peace, found a reason to smile, Ain’t felt that old anger in quite a while. But something’s changing when the lights go low, Feel a little pressure that nobody knows. I can hear my old reactions calling out my name, And the hardest part is knowing they still sound the same. I thought I closed that door, threw away the key, But lately I’ve been fighting with a memory of me. (Softly spoken) Mmmmm… Lord, I know that feeling. And I don’t wanna go back. [Chorus — Restrained Emotional Soul] Looooord… help meeee… The urge is coming baaaack… I can feel that old familiar weight, Trying to pull me off my path. Looooord… hold meeee… When my strength begins to crack. I fought too hard to find my peace… Lord, help me… The urge is coming back… [Verse 2 — The Battle Nobody Sees] I can smile while my mind’s in a fight, Tell everybody I’m good when I ain’t alright. They hear me singing love songs, think the Beast is gone, But they don’t hear my prayers when I’m sitting all alone. Sometimes I get quiet just to keep myself together, Trying not to turn one bad moment into forever. And I know every thought ain’t something I should follow, Some feelings leave a wound, some leave you feeling hollow. (Low, weary voice) See, that’s what scares me, Lord… Not that I remember who I was… But that sometimes… I miss how easy it was. [Bridge 1 — Babe, Pray for Me] [Gentle blues guitar bends. Soft male harmonies enter. The lead vocal rises naturally, without shouting.] Baaaaabe… I need you to pray for meeeee… My mind’s under attaaaack… And I can feel that old familiar darkness, Trying to pull me right back. Baaaaabe… I don’t need you to rescue me. Just remind me that the man you love, Is still the man I’m trying to be. Sometimes I get quiet, That don’t mean I’m leaving you. Sometimes I’m fighting feelings, I don’t wanna give in to. (Voice gently cracks) Babe… I love you. And I need your prayers tonight. [Bridge 2 — BLACKSONIX, My Brother] [Piano and cello only. Vocal becomes conversational, intimate, and sincere.] (Deep breath) BLACKSONIX… My brother… Man, I need you right now. Give me a scripture… To combat what I feeeeel… ‘Cause my mind’s under attack, And brother, this struggle is real. You know me, brother, You know what I’ve been through. I ain’t calling you to fight my battles, I just need a word from you. Something from the Good Book, Something I can hold onto. When my thoughts start getting heavy, And I can’t see my way through. (Almost whispered) My brother… Remind me what God said. When the noise gets too loud… And I can’t quiet my head. [Breakdown — Just God and Me] [Instruments slowly fade. Faint piano remains. Every breath is audible.] Lord… You heard me call my babe. You heard me reach out to my brother. Now… It’s just You and me. (Long pause) I ain’t proud of every thought I have. And I ain’t as strong as I act. Sometimes I still feel that old anger… Sometimes I even want to answer it. But Lord… You brought me too far. I don’t wanna lose the man I’ve become… Just to become the man I was. (Quiet, trembling voice) So give me patience… Give me wisdom… And when my mind gets tired… Please… Give me peace. [Final Chorus — Soulful, Controlled Emotional Lift] Looooord… help meeee… The urge is coming baaaack… Baaaaabe… pray for meeee… My mind’s under attaaaack… BLACKSONIX, my brother… Help me find the words I need. Lord, I’m trying to hold on… To the better part of me. Looooord… hold meeee… Don’t let me lose my way. I don’t have to be who I used to be… Just because I feel that way. [Outro — Quiet Strength] [Only warm piano and gentle breathing remain.] (Spoken softly) Lord… It’s still there. I can still feel it. But tonight… I didn’t answer. (Pause) Babe… Thank you for praying. BLACKSONIX… My brother… Thank you for being there. (Slow exhale) Lord… If tomorrow gets hard… I’ll come talk to You again. (Barely audible) Amen. [Last piano note fades naturally.]
