I lined my memories up on the wall They’re begging me to let them go There’s a night I try not to recall On the floor, folded like laundry oh Yeah baby I can't even cry Blood and bleach in the air Once I was yours, Yeah I was yours Now I'm left standing here I keep my voice down Though you aren't even here No I don’t even say your name Cause baby you won't hear I hit that dead end again Thinking I could go back Oh your goodbyes change into things I don’t know how to unpack Baby I can still pretend That I know what I need But I keep driving to that dead end Like it might go somewhere for me I’m a wilderness I didn’t choose Trees shaking in the cold Candle stubs, heart still bruised All that proof I get to hold Your words lay low in the grass So soft until they cut That last fight still hangs in the past But it's a thought I can’t give up You know my hands shake Over nothing at all Every quiet moment Feels like a fall I hit that dead end again Oh I swore I learned the route I keep thinking of you gone Still can’t find my way through I think about what was Oh baby I try to let you go but I keep driving to that dead end Like I don’t already know I turned our last time into a holiday I try to make the memory survive Cake on a plate, wine and candles It was too sweet to stay alive No I can't leave this thing Like it’s easy to forget I drink it down and still I see All those things we never said The snowbirds came back again Three notes in the air One for the blade One for me One for what’s no longer there I hit that dead end and stop at last Turn off the engine and breathe Some things don’t fade, they just lie flat Baby it's time to kill this dream Yeah I know Oh baby I know I know But I keep driving to that dead end Like it might go somewhere for me
