tell me why Ft. Corpse Vorrtex

[Corpse Vorrtex] I watched the ceiling turn for hours Counting every crack above my head Something keeps pulling at my conscience Something keeps repeating what you said I tried to bury all the damage Under years I swore I'd left behind But every road I take keeps bending Back to places I don't want to find I've spent years collecting reasons Trying to explain the weight I bear But every answer loses meaning When I'm alone and you're not there [Stumbled After Dawn] i try to keep control i try to grasp a hold but slip from what ive known Tell me why it keeps returning Every time i think its gone i can feel it getting closer Holding on for far too long tell me why it keeps returning giving me this choking feeling this pressure that surrounds me your closing in on me again tell me why it keeps returning TELL ME WHY!!! i keep your name off my breath.... refuse to let you get in..... wont let light through the cracks.... cant bring these thoughts back to life..... i'm always picking at the parts.... that should have been put to rest.... tried to chase it back inside my head.... its place belongs just beneath my skin.... how long can i hold it back.... this feeling that seeks to keep... at the forefront of my mind... and wont return into the black... with every step that i take the more i lose myself i scream at the mirror to behave but its a cracked and broken frame this cavity in my chest an empty space still holding you picking up the pieces means i'm loosing more or less Tell me why it keeps returning Every time i think its gone i can feel it getting closer Holding on for far too long tell me why it keeps returning giving me this choking feeling this pressure that surrounds me your closing in on me again tell me why it keeps returning TELL ME WHY!!!