[Verse 1] I was a scared lil' baby on my first Christmas Big tower of light shooting colors through the ceiling I kept duckin', tryna hide like the room might bite me Boxes stacked up high I thought they were my prison I didn't know the rules I didn't know the faces Everything was loud and the air felt dangerous I was seeing stars but they wasn't pretty I was just a tiny kid in a giant weird city [Pre-Chorus] Then the door swung hard and the whole place shook Big red, white monster with a roar I couldn't look I saw that grin and my heart went cold I said "nah, nah, nah" I was too small, too bold [Chorus] First Christmas panic First Christmas panic I was not ready I was not ready (not ready) First Christmas panic First Christmas panic Keep me out the room keep me out the room (out the room) [Verse 2] He told me "come sit down" I said "absolutely not" I'm a baby, but I knew that lap felt off I thought, "he a fool?" I thought, "he a threat?" I was reading every corner like a little suspect Then that magic flower hung low from the roof When two people got under it they started acting feral Growling, clinging, wrestling like a comic scene And I swear I saw my soul try to leave the screen [Pre-Chorus] They called it a holiday I called it a trial Little freaky helpers running wild through the aisle I needed rescue fast from that crazy show I was looking for an exit I was too young to know [Chorus] First Christmas panic First Christmas panic I was not ready I was not ready (not ready) First Christmas panic First Christmas panic Keep me out the room keep me out the room (out the room) [Bridge] Somebody save me from the clown parade I'm in a circus comedy with a monster in the shade I ain't understand none I was small and scared Whole house felt crooked like nobody cared [Final Chorus] First Christmas panic First Christmas panic I was not ready I was not ready (not ready) First Christmas panic First Christmas panic Now I tell that story and I still get shaky (still get shaky)
