[Verse 1] Don't call me suicidal 'cause I'm not I just don't like The life I got Pain meets sorrow Sorrow meets pain Same four walls Same old names I'm counting cracks In the ceiling fan Stuck between who I am now And all the "what if I had" [Pre-Chorus] Sometimes I just Hold my breath See how long I can sit with the silence I never asked To be this tired To feel like my story Was signed in minus [Chorus] I'm not suicidal But I'm so worn out I scream it in a whisper I don't wanna check out I just wanna feel Like I'm more than survived Yeah I see sunny days more now And I'm trying to stay alive Trying to stay Trying to stay alive (oh-oh) [Verse 2] Feels like my life Was borrowed and spent Everyone pulling On the same thin thread Taken for granted Taken for days Till I forgot I could walk away But lately I see A slice of blue Peeking through the blinds Where the dark slipped through [Pre-Chorus] The thunder in my chest Wakes me up Shakes the dust Off the part that cares If I'm still here If I still count If I can crawl From this folding chair [Chorus] I'm not suicidal But I'm so worn out I scream it in a whisper I don't wanna check out I just wanna feel Like I'm more than survived Yeah I see sunny days more now And I'm trying to stay alive Trying to stay Trying to stay alive (oh-oh) [Bridge] I never asked for this road Or these scars But I'm still here Still here so far If all I can promise Is one more day I'll take this trembling heart And fight anyway (hey) [Chorus] I'm not suicidal But I'm so worn out I scream it in a whisper I don't wanna check out I just wanna feel Like I'm more than survived Yeah I see sunny days more now And I'm trying to stay alive Trying to stay Trying to stay alive Yeah I see sunny days more now And I'll fight to stay alive
