I Still Look For You

**(Hook)** I still look for you in every crowd that I walk through, Still caught up in the thought that I'ma somehow cross you, Still reaching for the phone when I got something to talk through, Then reality reminds me that I lost you. I still look for you, yeah, I still look for you, In the places that we used to go, the shit that we used to do, Time moves forward, but my mind keeps running back to you, Everybody says I'm healing, but they don't know what I've been through. **(Verse 1)** I been scanning every face in every place that I be passing, Trying to find a little fraction of the person that I'm lacking, It's irrational, but grief'll have you trapped inside a pattern, Where you know they're gone forever but your brain refuses to accept it. I hear somebody laughing and for half a second, I react, Turn around expecting you to be the one that's standing back, Then the moment disappears and I'm reminded where we're at, It's amazing how a second can reopen every crack. I remember all the random conversations we were having, All the stupid shit we laughed at, all the moments we were lacking, Now I'm analyzing memories, examining what happened, Like dissecting every second could somehow change the fucking ending. I don't need another sermon telling me that time will heal, I need one more fucking minute where I know that you are real, One more ride, one more night, one more story I could feel, One more "What's up, bro?" before I had to learn to deal. **(Hook)** I still look for you in every crowd that I walk through, Still caught up in the thought that I'ma somehow cross you, Still reaching for the phone when I got something to talk through, Then reality reminds me that I lost you. I still look for you, yeah, I still look for you, In the places that we used to go, the shit that we used to do, Time moves forward, but my mind keeps running back to you, Everybody says I'm healing, but they don't know what I've been through. **(Verse 2)** I still look toward the passenger seat when I'm riding late, Like maybe you'll appear and tell me everything'll be okay, I still catch myself composing conversations in my brain, Then I realize I'm talking to a memory again. That's the hardest part, the heart remembers what the mind rejects, Love can keep somebody present after death has disconnected, Every photograph's a portal, every song becomes a message, Every little piece of yesterday can trigger all the wreckage. I been turning all this sorrow into syllables and melodies, Building something out of memories that used to fucking bury me, If I can't bring you back, then I'll make sure that they remember you, Put your name inside the music till the whole world knows the truth. And maybe that's the reason that I keep on making songs, 'Cause every time I write about you, somehow you're not as gone, You're alive inside the stories, every lyric, every thought, And the more I keep remembering, the more I know you're not lost. **(Bridge)** I know you're gone, But my heart don't know you're gone, That's why every time I turn around, I'm looking for you all over again. I know you're gone, But your memory keeps holding on, So if I can't find you in this life, I'll find you in every song. **(Final Hook)** I still look for you in every crowd that I walk through, Still caught up in the thought that I'ma somehow cross you, Still reaching for the phone when I got something to talk through, Then reality reminds me that I lost you. I still look for you, yeah, I still look for you, In the places that we used to go, the shit that we used to do, Time moves forward, but my mind keeps running back to you, And until the day I see you, I'll keep looking for you.