White Dust Mirror - Break the addiction

[Verse 1] "Even Vikings can fall... But you can rise again, addictions can be broken" I told myself, “This is medicine, this is helping me cope” First it gave me a ladder, then it tightened the rope White dust on the mirror, thin line, dead stare Sun came up three times and I was still right there Bills on the table, every promise went late Every “I’m doing fine” had a crack in its face I was borrowing light from a bottle of lies Burning through the peace just to counterfeit highs And the worst part? I knew, but I still played dumb Kept saying, “I’m in control, I can stop when I want” But the voice in my chest kept dying out slow While a stranger in my skin started putting on my clothes [Pre-Chorus] Mirror on the wall, who’s that wearing my eyes? Why’s he talking like me but his soul’s not inside? Hands shake, head down, floor cold beneath And a voice in the dark says, “This is not me” [Chorus] I’m breaking the chain I hear my mother call my name through the rain Saying, “Come back home, son, don’t freeze in the cold You were never made to carry this alone” I was buried alive Trying to breathe in a body on loan But I’m breaking the chain Step by step, I’m coming back home [Verse 2] Phone lights up, “Mom” — I let it ring again Couldn’t let her hear the wreck I was living in Voice in the voicemail cracked right through my mask “Are you eating at all? Are you sleeping?” she asked And I hated myself ‘cause I knew she could tell A mother always knows when her son’s not well I was chasing that first rush, then chasing relief Then chasing some sleep, then waking in grief Pills for the fall after flying too high Just to flatten the storm I was feeding inside Every fix came dressed like a hand in the storm But it always left me colder than the night before I had no crew, no crowd, no party, no scene Just me and bad choices and a sick kind of need A calculated lie that I swallowed as truth Till I couldn’t find the man that I was in my youth [Pre-Chorus] Hidden on a shelf in a shame-filled box Like a loaded little secret with a ticking clock I could feel it call, I could hear that cheat Saying, “One more time and you’ll finally be at peace” [Chorus] I’m breaking the chain I hear my mother call my name through the rain Saying, “Come back home, son, don’t freeze in the cold You were never made to carry this alone” I was buried alive Trying to breathe in a body on loan But I’m breaking the chain Step by step, I’m coming back home [Verse 3] Then came the silence, and man, that was hell No fire in the blood, just an empty shell Food had no color, music had no pulse Every minute felt heavy, every breath felt false Day one, cold sweat and a war in my head Day two, no shine, couldn’t get out of bed Day three, every wall had a weight of its own Day four, still alive, but I felt like a ghost And that’s when the lie starts begging the most When the pain says, “Go back, I can make you feel whole” But healing ain’t loud, nah, sometimes it crawls Sometimes victory looks like not answering the call Sometimes it’s your feet touching cold wood floors Sometimes it’s your mom being why you fight more Sometimes it’s just proving to the mirror each day That the boy ain’t dead — he was just covered in pain [Bridge] No glow, no rush Just the truth, just dust No mask, no cheat Just my heart, raw beat And the dark still talks But it don’t sound strong ‘Cause I know that voice now And I know it’s wrong [Final Chorus] I’m breaking the chain I hear my mother call my name through the rain Saying, “Come back home, son, don’t freeze in the cold You were never made to carry this alone” I was buried alive Trying to breathe in a body on loan But I’m breaking the chain Step by step, I’m coming back home [Outro] I’m coming back home Not perfect, not clean of the scars I’ve known But I’m here, still here And the light in my eyes is my own Yeah, I’m breaking the chain You are an Aztec Viking warrior on the inside, not a slave