(Intro — A distant church bell. Faint static. A single piano key. A heartbeat. Wind. A tired whisper.) I don't wanna die young... I just wanna go home... To the Father above... And pretend this never happened... (beat drops — slow, drifting, heavy) --- (Verse 1) I don't wanna die young — I just want the pain to stop I don't wanna bleed out — I just want the clock to drop Back to before the first thought told me I was nothing Back to before the world taught me trust was just a bluff I just wanna go home to the Father above Where the moonlight doesn't haunt and the darkness isn't love Where the blackout sky don't follow me to bed Where the voices finally quiet inside my head But home isn't a place I can run to yet It's a promise I hold with every struggling breath And I'm still here — not by luck, not by chance Just a stubborn refusal to let the darkness win In moonlight, in blackout, in the silence that screams My mind is still spinning but I'm holding the seams I don't wanna die young — I just want to be free From the weight that's been crushing the kid inside of me --- (Pre-Chorus) In moonlight — the shadows stretch too long In blackout — I forget where I belong But the Father's voice cuts through the static and the noise Saying "Son, you're not finished — you still have a choice" --- (Chorus) I don't wanna die young I just wanna go home To the Father above Say "this never happened" In moonlight, in blackout sky My mind is still but I'm alive I'm not leaving — not tonight I'm just waiting for the light --- (Verse 2) The blackout sky reminds me of my own head Dark, endless, filling up with dread But even in the dark there's a pinprick of something A flicker that the Father keeps from becoming nothing I've been close to the edge — closer than I'll admit Felt the pull of the void, felt the cold of the pit But every single time, something held me back Not a chain, not a cage — just a gentle tap On my shoulder, on my heart, on my weary soul A whisper that said "Son, you still have a role" So I don't wanna die young — I just want the hurt to heal I don't wanna give up — I just want something real A reason to stay when the blackout calls my name A reason to fight when the moonlight brings the shame And maybe that reason is still unfolding now Maybe it's the love I'm learning to allow Maybe it's the Father, maybe it's her Maybe it's the beat in my chest that still stirs --- (Pre-Chorus) In moonlight — I see how far I've come In blackout — I remember I'm not done The Father's hand is steady even when I shake He says "Son, you're still breathing — that's not a mistake" --- (Chorus) I don't wanna die young I just wanna go home To the Father above Say "this never happened" In moonlight, in blackout sky My mind is still but I'm alive I'm not leaving — not tonight I'm just waiting for the light --- (Bridge — Everything drops. Just wind. A heartbeat. A whisper.) I've imagined the conversation... Standing before the Father... Saying "can we just pretend this never happened... All the pain, all the darkness, all the blackout nights..." And He looks at me... Not with anger, not with pity... But with tears in His eyes... "Son... I was there for all of it... And I'm still here now... You made it through... You made it through..." (beat slowly returns — warm, swelling, like dawn breaking) Maybe I don't need to pretend it never happened... Maybe the blackout taught me how to see the stars... Maybe the moonlight showed me I'm still breathing... Maybe the Father was holding me all along... --- (Final Chorus — Full, swelling, not desperate — hopeful.) I don't wanna die young I'm learning how to stay With the Father above Who held me through the gray In moonlight, in blackout sky My mind is still — and so am I I'm not leaving — I'm alive I'm finally seeing the light --- (Outro — Church bell tolling once. Wind softening. A heartbeat. A final whisper.) I don't wanna die young... I just wanna go home... But maybe home isn't a place I run to... Maybe home is the Father who never left... And He's been here the whole time... In the moonlight... In the blackout... In the silence... He's been here... (church bell) (silence)
