Not as if.

# NOT AS IF [Intro] "Hey, aren't you ever going to get married?" [Verse 1] We were barely twenty You were my sister's closest friend A story that wasn't ours Somehow found your name instead You said we should stop here I had a train and a uniform So I let that be enough [Pre-Chorus] - Rising Synth Pulse, Tension Building] Not a fight, not a scene Nothing broke where I could see You walked away, I let you go Thinking I already knew [Chorus] Not as if, not as it was We never had a chance Not as if I couldn't call Or you couldn't turn back I thought I knew it as it was Enough to leave it there Not as if it meant nothing Not as if I didn't care Not as if we couldn't We just let it go [Verse 2] Day I left, phone in my hand Your voice came through, "Come back when you can" Months went by, then you showed up there Late night, low light, no big goodbye Just your face in the dark and mine Close enough, I knew what you meant Could've turned around, could've crossed that inch Not as if I didn't want to I just didn't Left that room just as it was Your breathing at my back [Instrumental] [Bridge / C-Melody] Years went by Doors that never closed I chose my road, you chose yours Then fifteen years became a wedding And there you were again I said, "I thought the army was the reason." You said, "No. That's not how it was." Someone else's story Had somehow worn your name [Final Chorus] Not as if, not how it was We never had a chance Not as if some cruel fate Had other plans I thought I knew it as it was Till you told me otherwise Not as if it meant nothing Not as if I forgot your face We had a hundred little doors And walked the other way Not as if we couldn't We just didn't stay [Outro] Later my mother said "That bridesmaid was pretty. What about her?" I almost laughed Not as if we couldn't We just let it go Not as if... Not as it was... Not as if... Not how it was... We just let it go... Not as if... [End]