LAG

Didn’t cry when you slammed the door Didn’t feel much — just a quiet floor Checked my phone, made some tea Thought I was fine, maybe too easy But now it’s 3 AM, and I’m not asleep You’re hitting me in memories Like echoes from a time I missed A pain I forgot to feel exists Guess I’m on a lag Heart’s still loading what we had Didn’t hurt ‘til yesterday Now it won’t go away Too slow to bleed, too late to beg My feelings always show up dead Guess I’m on a lag And you’re already gone Your jacket’s still on the chair I stared at it like you were there I didn’t shake, I didn’t scream But now your ghost’s inside my dreams I smiled too fast, said “I’m okay” Now silence takes your place My tears arrive like crashing files Too late to change the dial Guess I’m on a lag Heart’s still loading what we had Didn’t hurt ‘til yesterday Now it won’t go away Too slow to bleed, too late to beg My feelings always show up dead Guess I’m on a lag And you’re already gone I don’t feel in real time I wish I did Maybe then I could’ve kept you Guess I’m on a lag You were real… Now you’re just a tag