Intentional Ketamine Overdose (HellesBelles 4.5 remix)

[verse]
(“Sean? Sean? Are are are You okay?”)!!
Some one (am i alone?) said said my
my name (yes my name)
But that was (seconds unto lifetimes?) 
a long time ago (ago) time
I am staring at the ghost images (radiant trails)
Of still objects (still objects) unmoving
Motion blurrszzzzzzzzzzzz
when i forget (who) who (am)  i (I?) am!!
Whommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
[chorus]
Seconds flow slower (and slower)
(Until they tower mountainous) 
I see contours between tick and tock
Walk valleys through vineyards 
In the gaps between words in my head
“Slower yet
Instants are too large to sense scale and scope immense intense so thick
The brain’s processing capacity clicks
Puts its stream of consciousness 
Into a pin hole 
“Sees but does not know”
(So sees so much more)
Like water flows
Goes where least resisted 
Short circuited

[verse]
Empowers an eviction from the human condition in which identity
 is the first thing lost
Ketamine induced purity
 (severed sense of self) staring at infinity
perception unburdened
(Hurts me, obviously, 
But) pain is worth the learnin’

[verse]
I was trying to respond 
when i realized (memory was gone)
Trying to recall (anything at all)
When i (could no longer) remember
What i am
I (cannot recall what i) am
Why i am
The concept of am
The capacity (for concepts )
Memory of (what was lost)
Vanished
An eye (that does not) see
(Sight without sense)
To witness without bias or being
Stripped bare
(Drooling blank distant stare)
Eyes glaze over
Not gone
But not there
(Just not there)
[verse]
I am no more.  (Cannot conceptualize)
I have eyes that see (only see) 
but they transmit to an empty set
I would be afraid 
(if i could recall what i lost)
Time moves in snapshots 
the smallest increments 
(Like reality exists
on panes of glass
passing before me
Unjudged, unrecognized,  effortlessly-
seen but passing 
like water)

“I am no more”
No more
I
Am no mote
[bridge]
I am no more
No sense of passing time
No sense 
But not nothingness
Just  seeing
(Lens  of perception  
becomes
Entire sum 
of being)

[verse]
Just as incriminatally
as it all left 
So  it returns

Blink- aware that i exist
(Awareness of divison)
Ah ah ah
Blink- i remember( i am alive)
(Temporal existence, time)
Oh oh oh
Blink- i am human
(Hierarchical data structure)
Oh k oh k
Blink- i can move
(Physicality, further division)
Oooooooahoooooo
Blink- i am sean
(Sudden identity)
Mmmmmmmmmmm
Blink- time accelerates
(Reintegration into the clot of atom and potentials
Of cells and psychology)
Hoooooooo eeeee ooooo

All a fractal off the eye which does not see
(the eye which does not see)

I awake 
I awaken something unsettling 
Unsettling
And likely a shadow 
of what death will be

Not fear and weeping
But gentle severing of capacity

No memory (of identity)
So no fear

(of its loss)
No concept of light
(So no fear of 
The dark)

The
Deep
Deep
dark.

[chorus]

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[intro] Inhale, (recoil) [spoken as if unsure or confused] Insidious chemistry Brace myself and see whats to come Diving deep To see the universe without me in it Worthy risk Yes Worthy risk i think [verse] (“Sean? Sean? Are are are You okay?”)!! Some one (am i alone?) said said my my name (yes my name) But that was (seconds unto lifetimes?) a long time ago (ago) time I am staring at the ghost images (radiant trails) Of still objects (still objects) unmoving Motion blurrszzzzzzzzzzzz when i forget (who) who (am) i (I?) am!! Whommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm [chorus] Seconds flow slower (and slower) (Until they tower mountainous) I see contours between tick and tock Walk valleys through vineyards In the gaps between words in my head “Slower yet Instants are too large to sense scale and scope immense intense so thick The brain’s processing capacity clicks Puts its stream of consciousness Into a pin hole “Sees but does not know” (So sees so much more) Like water flows Goes where least resisted Short circuited [verse] Empowers an eviction from the human condition in which identity is the first thing lost Ketamine induced purity (severed sense of self) staring at infinity perception unburdened (Hurts me, obviously, But) pain is worth the learnin’ [verse] I was trying to respond when i realized (memory was gone) Trying to recall (anything at all) When i (could no longer) remember What i am I (cannot recall what i) am Why i am The concept of am The capacity (for concepts ) Memory of (what was lost) Vanished An eye (that does not) see (Sight without sense) To witness without bias or being Stripped bare (Drooling blank distant stare) Eyes glaze over Not gone But not there (Just not there) [verse] I am no more. (Cannot conceptualize) I have eyes that see (only see) but they transmit to an empty set I would be afraid (if i could recall what i lost) Time moves in snapshots the smallest increments (Like reality exists on panes of glass passing before me Unjudged, unrecognized, effortlessly- seen but passing like water) “I am no more” No more I Am no mote [bridge] I am no more No sense of passing time No sense But not nothingness Just seeing (Lens of perception becomes Entire sum of being) [verse] Just as incriminatally as it all left So it returns Blink- aware that i exist (Awareness of divison) Ah ah ah Blink- i remember( i am alive) (Temporal existence, time) Oh oh oh Blink- i am human (Hierarchical data structure) Oh k oh k Blink- i can move (Physicality, further division) Oooooooahoooooo Blink- i am sean (Sudden identity) Mmmmmmmmmmm Blink- time accelerates (Reintegration into the clot of atom and potentials Of cells and psychology) Hoooooooo eeeee ooooo All a fractal off the eye which does not see (the eye which does not see) I awake I awaken something unsettling Unsettling And likely a shadow of what death will be Not fear and weeping But gentle severing of capacity No memory (of identity) So no fear (of its loss) No concept of light (So no fear of The dark) The Deep Deep dark. [chorus]

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