Seances For Ourselves

**Verse 1** There's a photo booth confession in my jacket's inner seam Where you swore you'd break the pattern but you're stitched into the dream All the estate agents are vultures circling childhood homes And I'm carbonated anger in a flat-share built on loans The adverts promised futures wrapped in cellophane and chrome Now I'm rifling through the bargain bin for somewhere that feels known **Pre-Chorus** So let's pretend we're dangerous Like we've got something left to burn The city's just a waiting room And we're still waiting for our turn **Chorus** Under sodium light, we're holding séances for our former selves Summoning the kids we were before we learned to live on bottom shelves There's poetry in how we've learned to weaponize our disappointment well Under sodium light, we're just conducting séances for ourselves **Verse 2** You said "meet me where ambition goes to die a quiet death" So I'm stood outside the off-license, I'm rationing my breath There's a sermon in the static between stations on the dial And I've memorized your absence like a supermarket aisle We're all extras in a period piece that hasn't aged to classic yet Just rehearsing our excuses and accumulating debt **Pre-Chorus** So let's pretend we're reckless still Like consequences are a myth The future's just an endless scroll And we're still learning how to live with this **Chorus** Under sodium light, we're holding séances for our former selves Summoning the kids we were before we learned to live on bottom shelves There's poetry in how we've learned to weaponize our disappointment well Under sodium light, we're just conducting séances for ourselves **Bridge** And maybe we're the ghosts Haunting bodies we don't recognize anymore Trading innocence for cynicism Like we're keeping score But there's something in the wreckage Something worth salvaging still In the space between who we were And who we're afraid we never will— **Final Chorus** Under sodium light, we're holding séances for our former selves Summoning the kids we were before we learned to live on bottom shelves There's alchemy in how we turn our hurting into something else Under sodium light, we're still conducting séances for ourselves Yeah, under sodium light, we're still worth saving from ourselves