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THE COUNTRY WHERE I AM WHOLE

V5.5

[Intro — wind / iron / heartbeat] I missed this place. [second voice] So did I. [lead — low] Crawl to the wall. Kneel. Look at me. Tonight we answer one question. Want— or need? [iron closes] Breathe. Answer. [Verse 1 — sparse / severe] Blood moon dying over stone Light-years from the masquerade Naked skin and ancient iron Every little mask stripped away I kissed your hands Before I bound them Watched your breathing change Then took my cognac Sat before you And asked again: Do you want me? Or need me? [second voice] Need you. [lead] Why? [Interrogation] Why do we want more? [second voice] More trust. [lead] What is more? [second voice] More truth. [lead] How far? [second voice] Deeper. [lead] How deep? [second voice — breathless] I don't know. [lead] Then find out. [Refrain — heavy pulse] BREAK ME. SPARE ME. TEST ME. CHERISH ME. Leave me open. Leave me known. Take me somewhere I have never been— Some country without a name. [Verse 2 — pressure increasing] You watched me fighting with the weight Every answer costing more Asked me where the journey ended I said— There is no shore. [lead] Wrong. No journey starts without a destination. Tell me yours. [second voice — struggling] Broken— and spared. Tormented— and cherished. Vulnerable. Open. Valued. Bound— and loved. Held by someone who knows the difference Between possession and the gift I place inside her hands. [silence] [lead] And my heart? Journey— or destination? [second voice] Fellow traveller. Always. [Build — oppressive / breath and metal] You touched my face. You touched my sex. You pressed me down and made the torment sing. My breath grew thin. My answers broke. One word. Then two. Then fragments. [lead] Still want more? [second voice] Yes. [lead] Why? [second voice] Because— [breath] because here— I disappear— and become— more— myself. [Drop / Interrogation] WHAT ARE WE? [second voice] Lost souls. WHAT DO WE NEED? Surrender. WHAT DOES PAIN BECOME? Another note. WHAT DOES PLEASURE BECOME? Another note. AND TOGETHER? [second voice — gasping] Music. [lead] How far? [second voice] As far as the road takes us. [lead] And if you need mercy? [second voice] I have a word. [lead] Give it to me. [second voice — barely audible] Anguisette. [lead] Again. [second voice] Anguisette. [METAL RELEASES] [TOTAL SILENCE] [lead — close] I heard you. [Turn — warmth entering very slowly] The old iron opened. The collar fell. Your strength gave way and I took your weight. No philosophy now. No beautiful theory. Only your breath returning against me. [lead] Are you well? [second voice] Yes, Mistress. And you? [lead] All is well when I have you in my arms. [Final Chorus — sudden release / enormous dark catharsis] TAKE ME TO THE COUNTRY WHERE I AM WHOLE Break me and spare me Test me and cherish me Let me surrender without disappearing Let me be helpless and still be known Past every rule Past every mask Past every daylight name I don't know the destination. I don't need to. If your heart travels beside mine— Take me. Take me. Take me to the country where I am whole. [Outro — fire / distant wind] [second voice] The journey is beautiful enough. [lead] Then travel with me. [second voice] Wherever it leads? [lead] Wherever it leads. [whisper] Want— or need? [second whisper] Both.