[heavy instrumental: driving guitars, heavy drums] [verse] has big news, has heard it looks like paradise and the sun stays out for us i hope that you've been well know the things I would have told you if i got to say farewell still ain't been back home, lord knows it's been too long and i can't bring myself to think that way [verse] this one's had a baby and this one's getting married if only you'd seen that they're on their way [pre-chorus] even now i still believe you're in that chair with the tv on can't wait on me to walk in through that front door [chorus] across the water from my roots, ain't been back for a few years the truth is, i don't want to go back home if you won't be there [verse] it's hard to say it's true, but is it really home if there's no you? and if you're really gone then there's no use trying to catch that one way will i ever leave that therapy? what if i don't want to ever grieve? it leaves me empty [pre-chorus] even now i still believe you're in that chair with the TV on can't wait on me to walk in through that front door [chorus] across the water from my roots, ain't been back for a few years the truth is, i don't want to go back home if you won't be there [bridge] (oh, baby, say that you) (oh, baby, say that you) (oh, baby, say that you) (oh, baby, say that you) (oh, baby, say that you) (oh, baby, say that you) [verse] i know you want me to move on with life, but i can't leave you behind this one hurts to say goodbye yeah, i know now you're in a better place, but i ain't ready for this change home won't ever feel the same how is the sky looking different now that you're up there? i face a description, how is the view looking down on your children from up there? i don't seem to cope too well, that's why i put it off till now even when the sun comes down, it hurts too much to even bring you up right now and i'm scared to go home [chorus] 'cause even now i still believe you're in that chair with the tv on can't wait on me, oh, i've been across the water from my roots, ain't been back for a few years the truth is, i don't want to go back home if you won't be there i don't want to go back home if you won't be there [heavy instrumental: driving guitars, heavy drums]