Mmmhmm (oooou Bando on da Beat! (ba-ba-bando fuckin 7) I’m not healed, I’m honest, that’s enough tonight I’m not whole, but I’m learning how to hold my life Every fall left a lesson, every bruise left proof I was looking for an exit—now I’m looking for the truth Open up the gate, I’m knocking with faith I’ve been running from the dark, but I’m changing my pace.. I’m still here, still here, still alive Rain, rain, wash the weight away Pain, pain, don’t get the final say I might shake, I might bend, I might break But I’m still here waiting on a better day I been carrying a storm in my chest Trying to smile with a world on my back Pain don’t vanish, it just changes Long nights, low lights, eyes wide, no sleep, Mind runs laps while my soul runs deep, Too much weight and it cuts too steep, But I plant both feet when the ground don’t keep. I lost some people I thought wouldn’t leave, Watched love turn cold, watched promises freeze, Now I keep my heart with a lock and a key, Still hoping somebody sees what I mean. I don’t need a perfect life, I just need a little room to breathe, I been fighting every night For the part of me that still believes. How long till the pressure breaks? How long till I catch my break? Father, if You hear my voice, Open up a door, let me make a choice. I been drowning in the shame, Running circles through the pain, If the rain won’t wash away, Give me strength to face another day. Don’t let me fade, don’t let me fall, I’ve been holding on with nothing at all, If Heaven’s got a gate for the ones who pray, Leave it open— I’m on my way. I’m a proud dad with a storm in my eyes, Tell my little ones that the sun gonna rise, Then I turn away so they don’t see me crack, Try to give them hope while I’m losing mine back. Feeling down bad, feeling stuck in the past, Counting every dream that I let go fast, Thought I’d do more, thought I’d make it last, Now I’m face-to-face with the man in the glass. I got high just to quiet the noise, Tried to drown out the ache, tried to bury the voice, But the buzz burns off and the hurt comes back, Same room, same wound, same weight on my back. Temporary peace, permanent cost, Every escape left another piece lost, I can’t keep running from the things I became, So I’m calling them out, one by one, by name. Self-hate talks fast, but I’m faster tonight, Turn the dark into rhythm, turn the wrong into light, Every syllable a spark, every bar a small flame, I’m still bleeding, but I’m learning my name. How long till the pressure breaks? How long till I catch my break? Father, if You hear my voice, Open up a door, let me make a choice. I been drowning in the shame, Running circles through the pain, If the rain won’t wash away, Give me strength to face another day. Don’t let me fade, don’t let me fall, I’ve been holding on with nothing at all, If Heaven’s got a gate for the ones who pray, Leave it open—(Ba-ba-ba-ban-ban-bando) I’m on my way. Rapid-fire, heart wired, dark thoughts, backfire, Climbing out the mud with a soul full of barbed wire, Same old pain, new day, still I rise, Still got fire in the blood, still got fight in the eyes. I don’t need pity, don’t need your disguise, Just tell me the truth, even if it don’t shine, Truth might free me or drag me below, But I’d rather face the fall than be lost in the smoke. Everybody leaves, that’s the fear in my head, So I push them away before they leave me instead, Then I sit in the silence with the words I regret, Building walls out of things I ain’t ready to forget. But the young ones watching, so I gotta stand tall, Even when my knees shake, even when I feel small, I can’t promise no storms, I can promise I’ll fight, I can show them a road through the middle of the night. Broken don’t mean buried, lost don’t mean gone, A weak day ain’t a weak life, a dark night ain’t dawn, If I stumble, I recover, if I bleed, I repair, If the world won’t show me love, I’ll build some there. Lord, I’m tired, but I’m still breathing, Still searching, still believing, If I’m bent, don’t let me break, If I’m lost, show me the way. Let me lay this burden down, Let me feel solid ground, I don’t have to heal in one day, I just gotta choose to stay. How long till the pressure breaks? How long till I catch my break? Father, if You hear my voice, Open up a door, let me make a choice. I been drowning in the shame, But I’m more than what I’ve faced, Every scar and every stain Could become a map through all this pain. Don’t let me fade, don’t let me fall, I’ve been holding on, now I’m giving my all, If Heaven’s got a gate, let it open wide, I’m bringing every wound I tried to hide. New day, new breath, same road, new pace, Still got tears, still got faith, I may bend, but I won’t break, I’m still here— I’m gonna make a way.
