Twilight of Ares

(Answering voice) "Medication interrupted. Qualification void. Stay extended." The crimson dust storms of Ares batter against the dome The urn of Nepenthe lies shattered into pieces My wrists tremble with the biting cold and sheer agony As the cage of reason breaks, my blood burns into madness... The memory of my husband left behind on Earth His silent morning prayers, tying our daughter’s hair once more... Even that sacred sanctuary drowns beyond the red mist Is this punishment for defying the gods—my hubris? Or the manic darkness lurking deep within my flesh? This cold, calculating mind that once mapped the stars Now bows down in total surrender to a single drop of thirst I step barefoot into the damp, neon-lit depths of the city Clinging to the chest of a man whose name I do not know Drowning myself in the raw heat of his skin Shame and morality are nothing more than the idle games of the gods These fingers, which should have been gently combing my daughter's hair, Now claw violently at a man's back, tangled and soaked in sweat Surrendering to the brutal throb of raw passion—to Eros— I smother my very existence in the mire of disgrace Laugh, O Gods, laugh at my fall The saint and the madman lie in the very same mud With every peak of pleasure I reach in a stranger's arms, My intellect dies, and my soul drifts closer to ash Yet only at the bottom of this miserable delight Can I grasp the lingering warmth of being alive O Nepenthe, medicine meant to wash away all pain If you cannot erase my madness, then burn this body to ash Folding my wet, broken wings at the bottom of Mars' red clay, The phoenix named "I" sinks into the pitch-black abyss The moment of catharsis remains far out of reach I become a mere beast, devouring the warmth of stranger This breaking flesh is a sacrifice to the stars, My unbound soul, a sacred Apocalypse Torn across a thousand light-years, my brainwave and KAGUYA Entangle in quantum waves, superimposing light Stripping away the cage of flesh, I ascend into the Phoenix Listening to the hollow heartbeat against a man's chest... "...I will not die just yet." "For there at Jupiter... sleeps my key, "