Paint Me in ruin

Okay, here's the English translation of those lyrics: [Intro – whispered, gentle but unsettling] I see a crack in the place where light should shine I trace it with trembling fingers Something inside is trying to scream But I can't remember what my own voice sounded like [Verse 1 – calm, rational] Once, I was everything you longed to be Polished, composed, untouchable But the mirror keeps cracking And it's trying to show me what I always was A myth told in the first person A warning wrapped in silk I smile — but it doesn't reach my eyes I speak — but it's someone else's voice [Pre-Chorus – building tension] Tell me, can you still recognize this face? This face that accepted your betrayal with a smile? (You thought I wouldn't notice...) I faked grace like a weapon And wore your silence like a crown [Chorus – unhinged and venomous] Paint Me in Ruin (Paint me...) Adorn my name in funeral gold If I can't be your masterpiece I'll be your ghost Sew me into your guilt Inhale me with your regrets You broke me with bare hands So I'll bloody yours with mine [Verse 2 – unstable, bitter tone] I remember laughter (did I?) Or was that another lie I made real? I held pain like a sacred relic And prayed to it when you left Who was I trying to save? You? Me? Maybe just an illusion The illusion that I was more than your aftermath [Pre-Chorus – quiet, cold] Do you remember me before you carved betrayal into my skin? I begged with dignity — bled beautifully And now, I'm just… here (Still, unmoved, unholy, undone) [Chorus – unraveling] Paint Me in Ruin (Paint me in ruin...) Tear the frame from the wall If I won't be remembered with love Then remember the decay Etch me into your memory with a scream And call it poetry I was never your muse I was the ending you feared [Verse 3 – briefly rational again] I told myself this story would have meaning That suffering gets woven into narrative But there's no arc here — just disorder No meaning, no justice Just noise And I'm starting to like the sound [Breakdown – aggressive, fragmented] You said I was broken So I shattered on purpose You said I was weak So I fell like a god You said I was yours So I set myself on fire And when you tried to extinguish me with your lies I laughed [Verse 4 – soft, ghostlike] It's quiet now… Is this the sound of peace? Or have I gone too far to hear the screams you buried in my name? It doesn't matter I'll plant flowers in the ashes And call it justice [Pre-Chorus – fragile but present] This is my shape This is my will The path I didn't choose But now, it's mine [Final Chorus – fractured, fading] Paint Me in Ruin (Paint me...) Blow my shadow into the sky If I won't be remembered Still — feel me Lose me in a silence that never ends Embrace it as your punishment You burned the truth But I won't burn out in you [Outro – slow, melodic, contemplative] You wanted to believe in me So you made me a god You wanted to punish me So you made me a demon But I was just — existing And still, I exist Paint Me in Ruin Even if that's all you can remember [Intro – soft, eerie, internal] Time doesn't heal wounds It just dissolves my name in the wind I'm not in anyone's prayers anymore But still… in someone's sins [Verse 1 – cold, quiet, resigned] You painted a path through my ruins But it was to avoid me That pain you called "sacred" You didn't try to see it through I became a monster to protect myself You called it "tragedy" The mask of kindness burned away Now my face is in the smoke [Pre-Chorus – slow, suffocating tension] You twisted my voice I believed it was a prayer But was it a curse, instead? Hey… Can I still think of myself as "me"? [Chorus – ghostly, full of slow-burning rage] Paint Me in Ruin (One more time…) Carve my name in stone, but don't read it Pretend to mourn me, but forget If I wasn't worthy of your god At least let me remain as your curse Even if buried in memory My shadow won't disappear I'm still breathing behind you [Verse 2 – surreal, fragmented, hallucinating] Was I laughing? Or was it a phantom in the mirror? Was I a dream to you? Or… a disaster? Even as reality crumbled, I held my shape You called it "abnormal" But I was — my own gravedigger Because no one else would build the tombstone [Bridge – duality, martyr vs monster] I wasn't an angel But I wasn't a demon either I was the shadow of your convenience The other side of what you call light Surviving wasn't a miracle It was a choice So I wouldn't lose myself [Pre-Chorus – haunted, layered whispers] Hey, remember What kind of voice I cried with What kind of eyes I looked with Because you didn't see it I killed it myself Quietly, slowly, surely [Chorus – melodic, beautifully broken] Paint Me in Ruin (Can you hear me?) Make my silence into a song If I won't be spoken Speak with that silence I'm in your sleepless nights That alone repays my existence Even if you forget I'll keep burning in your sins [Outro – fading like a memory] I didn't die I just fell out of your reality But even still… I'm still in your story In the corner of that distorted, burned-out page Unseen, unreadable, But my name is still there And you, You can't erase it Paint Me in Ruin Again and again — until the name disappears