There was a cup gone cold between us Rain climbing sideways on the glass You kept one hand around the doorknob I kept pretending this would pass Your coat was blue Or maybe charcoal The hallway light was warm Or white I know the shape your shadow left there I can’t remember what was right I know the room I don’t know which one I know the last word I don’t know who said it In one, I catch you at the threshold In one, I finally say your name In one, the cruel word never leaves me In one, you never learn the pain I softened every silence I changed the weather in your eyes I kept repairing how you left me Till the truth could not survive Every version of goodbye Has your face and not your eyes I can tell you where you stood I can’t tell you which was mine Every mercy I invented Made the truth much harder to find Now I live in every ending And lose you every time Run it once where I stop talking Run it once where I can hear Run it once where you forgive me Run it once where you stay here I stopped asking what had happened I only asked what hurt the least The room grew warmer You grew gentler And every copy looked like peace Every version of goodbye Has your face and not your eyes I can tell you where you stood I can’t tell you which was mine Every mercy I invented Made the truth much harder to find Now I live in every ending And lose you every time You asked me what she said I gave you seventeen answers You asked me which one was hers I couldn’t tell you I know the room I don’t know which one I know the wound I don’t know when I remember every version Except the one that happened I made you kinder than you were I made myself worth staying for I saved us both in every way Except the one that mattered Every version of goodbye Fades the closer that I look You are perfect in the replay You are missing from the truth I kept choosing better endings Till I lost the one we had Now I know every room And you’re gone from all of them
