Verse 1) In my mind, it’s a permanent ICU I’m hooked to the machines, just trying to get through But you’re standing over me, cold and precise Checking the vitals, but your heart is like ice You’re saying those words, those toxic refrains Injecting the poison right into my veins You say I’m "too much," that I’m "stressing you out" While I’m lying here dying, drowning in doubt. Pre-Chorus) (Music starts to build, getting more intense) My breathing gets shallow, the pressure is real You’re twisting the truth like it’s part of the deal I’m looking at proof, you’re looking at me Saying "I didn't do it" so desperately You’re rewiring my brain to doubt what I know While the monitor starts to drop dangerously low. (Chorus) And I’m flatlining now, yeah, the screen’s going straight While you’re at the bedside, deciding my fate It’s the same old ghost, the same old scar My boyfriend did this, now I see who you are He left me three times for the way that I feel Now you’re the one twisting the knife in the wheel The monitor’s screaming, the rhythm is gone You’re the one holding the blade I’m leaning on. (Verse 2) You have the audacity to say that you’d date me While you use my disorder to judge and to hate me? "If I didn't have her, I'd want to be yours" While you’re closing the blinds and locking the doors You want to own me, but you won't hold my hand When the anxiety hits and I can't even stand It’s a sick kind of game, it’s a twisted desire To tell me you love me while setting the fire. (Bridge) Landon did this. He called me a burden. Now you’re the one drawing the hospital curtain. I’m "too anxious" to sit in your class, in your life? Your friendship is sharper than any old knife. I want to pull the plugs, I want to be done I’m tired of being the only broken one But I can’t even tell you, I can’t even speak Because you’ll make it my fault, and call me the weak. (Guitar Solo / Heavy Instrumental Break) (The "flatline" beep gets louder and more constant) (Verse 3) Go ahead, find someone "easy" and "light" Who doesn't have demons to fight in the night I’m done being the patient, I’m done with the bed I’m done with the toxic things that you said You’re not my doctor, you’re the one who caused the crash Turning our "permanent" bond into ash The monitor is silent. The room is so still. I’m finally breaking the grip of your will. Pre-Chorus) (Music starts to build, getting more intense) My breathing gets shallow, the pressure is real You’re twisting the truth like it’s part of the deal I’m looking at proof, you’re looking at me Saying "I didn't do it" so desperately You’re rewiring my brain to doubt what I know While the monitor starts to drop dangerously low. (Chorus) And I’m flatlining now, yeah, the screen’s going straight While you’re at the bedside, deciding my fate It’s the same old ghost, the same old scar My boyfriend did this, now I see who you are He left me three times for the way that I feel Now you’re the one twisting the knife in the wheel The monitor’s screaming, the rhythm is gone You’re the one holding the blade I’m leaning on (Verse 4) You claim you’d date me if circumstances allowed, Yet you’re the one who keeps my spirits bowed. It’s a shallow praise, a hook in the water, To keep me locked up, a loyal daughter. You want the romance of my darkest hour, While stripping away my voice and power. You fetishize the pain I cannot hide, And punish me for having feelings inside. (Verse 5) Three times he broke me, I was left to fall, Now you’re the warden, building the wall. Echoing his words, the same cruel script, Calling it friendship while I am stripped. You seek the glory, the role of the savior, But mirror his actions, his cold behavior. A prison disguised, not a place to heal, I’m done with the hurt, and the way that I feel. (Bridge 2) Fine, I’ll leave the room if I’m too much to bear, Find somewhere else to breathe the fresh air. Where my anxiety isn't a crime, And I don't surrender my sanity and time. I’m not overwhelming, you’re just too small, To support someone who’s afraid to fall. Severing the ties, cutting the feed, Admitting at last, you’re not what I need (Verse 6) Tomorrow I’m with someone genuine and true, Who doesn't dictate how I should view. No checking devices, no screen to scan, For the confusing, hurtful, cruel plan. You’ll blame me, ghosting, claiming I’m the foe, But you destroyed the light I used to know. The ICU is empty, the power is gone, I’m walking away to find the new dawn. (Outro) (The beeping stops. Total silence.) I’m done with the friendship. I’m done with the lie. I’m tired of being the one who has to die... So you can feel perfect. So you can feel "normal." Keep your girlfriend. Keep your classroom. I’m never checking out of this ICU. (Flatline tone fades out...)
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