[Papa] I wrote these two songs when I was starting out. Changing them up a little... Its amazing where I am today, ya know? Been able to work through it all, thrive 'n' stay strong..... Still be there for others…..love They all said they'd be there for me... They weren't when I started dropping music They weren't when I started writing instead of using Put myself in the crosshair too much, done waiting for compliments I write what you're all afraid to express, things not for the faint of heart Art, a lyrical form beyond flat, Through the nights I sweat like a blacksmith, hammering bars Lookin' to stars, tunneling 'em in the quantum I speak ever so optinent, surreal term as it's optineō Ma salival bacteria convertin' verbal conjugations My thoughts touch topics so prominent, the honest feelings of a man, rubbled under malcontent You all said you'd be there for me! I ain't worried 'cause I know who is Got a family built from networks You all said you'd be there for me! Ain't trippin, put my best foot first Always missing life 'cause I was too caught up in missin' them... I'm left here to ask, was it all a dirty game? Was chasing my highs Still I ended up so low Chasin' my highs....fuckin so lowwww If ya think my lyrics are depressing and unruly, you don't have to listen I may be ungodly, spew a cannon fodder of vocal splurge, mental distrub Can't strike me as the type for harming, my soul out for arming The war inside, already starting Men's mental health misunderstood as simple scarring How much degradation, abrasion, eroding does it take? They never hear my words the way I've written 'em Just take it as the next bad thing that snaps me like a filament Tearing up ma life rough wit' prevalence Left to atone for ma malevolence Been missin' em... Those that supported me If I could, I'd have rescued 'em I would have given my life Cursed were my thoughts Used ta revel and rithe Cut my tongue on tears Their faces in limelight Will I live up to them? Will I coincide? Will the lessons that they taught me help live wit' hope that I'll be alright? Chasin my highs……fuckin’ so lowwwwww I been lacing my feelin's, facin' my demons, no trace of 'em, tracin' lines back to the screamin', sniffles, let 'em squall, fall, scroll 'n' call the next one who think's of stopping me from speaking out, feeling feelin's out, 'this my residence, ain't leavin' this place that's evident Flip a switch 'n' say my words succulent, sorrowful yet I'm steady killin' it 'n' leaving no evidence, building a legacy living in the infinite (I cut loose ends! From rock hard thought! I put the scissors to the rock! Rock to paper! Shaving off til the gravel's tapered!) You all said you'd be there for me! I ain't worried 'cause I know who is Got a family built from networks You all said you'd be there for me! Ain't trippin, put my best foot first Always missing life 'cause I was too caught up in missin' them... I'm left here to ask, was it all a dirty game? Was chasing my highs Still I ended up so low Chasin' my highs....fuckin so lowwww Yeah, they swore they’d be present, but where were their voices? Where was their support? The proof lays in their choices All I know is my socials’ll flood once I’m off the shore Same ones silent before suddenly will quote me for more, reminiscing my name 'pon cathedral floors “Damn, he made beautiful songs,” Then their captions will appear, But wouldn’t type a damn word while I was still here They’ll reminisce off the echo, pretend we were close, Experience shelved ’til my name on a headstone Funny how support from those "close" is only spoken when the soul’s already broken Always missing life 'cause I was too caught up in missin' them... I'm left here to ask, was it all a dirty game? Was chasing my highs Still I ended up so low Chasin' my highs....fuckin so lowwww It's Papa, I know my worth
