I still reach for the cup on the right side of the bed Even though you moved out and I sleep alone instead My hand just hangs there, nothing left to hold I rewired every thought but the reflex still remains And my body keeps the score, won't do what it's told I'm still learning how to break out of these chains I thought I'd trained myself to let it go But habits run deeper than the roots below It's muscle memory, that's all my body knows Repeating old routines like I'm rehearsing shows I'm someone different now but my actions disagree My feet still walk the path back to your door Even when my head says I don't want this anymore It's muscle memory and I'm trying to break free I still check my phone like you might call me back Even though I blocked your number I still fall off track There's a pull inside my chest I can't explain I've moved across town but I take the long way home Past your old street just to feel that ache again Like I'm addicted to the hurt, can't leave it alone I thought I'd trained myself to let it go But habits run deeper than the roots below It's muscle memory, that's all my body knows Repeating old routines like I'm rehearsing shows I'm someone different now but my actions disagree My feet still walk the path back to your door Even when my head says I don't want this anymore It's muscle memory and I'm trying to break free I don't know how long it takes to stop what I've become How many mornings waking up before the pattern comes undone How many times I'll trip myself before I finally run But I'm not asking for permission to be someone new I'm not waiting till it's perfect, till I've got a clue I'm walking out that door even when my body says don't move It's muscle memory, but the grip is getting loose I'm catching myself faster, learning how to choose I'm someone different now, my actions finally agree My feet don't pull me back there like they did before I'm done taking detours just to pass by your door It's muscle memory, I'm starting to break free
